The Dancin World of Bunny!

:)

2008-05-30T09:28:00.000-07:00

I nEed You Near me now. Never Knew......just how.....

You're a part of me and all I am.

Never been more in the Dark, never Been this scared, never was so uncertain of what to do or speak.

Never been so alone, never been without you. Never had more than i could keep.

And wad i need now, is someone Like you, Cant believe i Didn't Look you up, Even before i knew. How you have waited for me. I know now...now.

I'm desperate, I'm calling out your name. can you hear me??

I'm Falling, I cant feel your falme, so cOld and i wanna go home, wanna feel your arms around me can you hear me?? Save me....

So afraid of who i am, i need your strength to live......again.

I put my hand in yours you fill me up. i know you'll always be there. You 're more than enough.....

2008-03-10T07:14:00.000-07:00

♥ AUGUST = THUG

You a strait up "Geek" Attractive personality.Very! sexy.Affectionate & Secretive. Naturally honest, generous and sympathetic.Chatterbox! Loves to talk alot! Loves to get their way! . Unbelievable kisser! Easily angered. Very stubborn in the most way possible! Loves to get noticed! Willing to take risks for others. Makes good choices. Has a great fashion sense! Maybe a little too popular with others * wink wink*. Outgoing and crazy at times! Intelligent. Can sometimes be a heartbreaker! Can love as much as possible! Hates insults. Loves compliments! A very big flirt! Trustworthy. Appreciative and returns kindness. The best in bed out of ANY of these months!! Hardly shows emotions. Tends to bottle up feelings. Observant and assesses others.

♥ NOVEMBER = HOTTIE

Fun to be with. Loves to try new things. Boy/girls LOVE you.You are very hott. Secretive. Difficult to fathom and tobe understood. Quiet unless excited or tensed.Takes pride in oneself. Has reputation. Easilyconsoled. Honest. Concerned about people'sfeelings. Tactful. Friendly. Approachable.Emotional temperamental and unpredictable.Moody and easily hurt. Witty and sparkly.spazzy at times.Not revengeful. Forgiving but never forgets.dislikes nonsensical and unnecessary things.Guides others physically and mentally. Sensitiveand forms impressions carefully. Caring andloving. Treats others equally. Strong sense ofsympathy. Wary and sharp. Judges peoplethrough observations. Hardworking. No difficultiesin studying. Always broods about the past and the old friends. Waits for friends. Never looks for friends. Not aggressiveunless provoked. Loves to be loved. Easily hurtbut takes long to recover. Great kisser

2008-02-13T04:03:00.001-08:00

My HEART !

You take your time and do not fall in love easily.You give 50% in a relationship, and expect 50% in return.You like to handle your problems directly and immediately. You are alright with not seeing him/her so often. you expect the person to change for you.You measure your desire to whomever you love by the amount of desire he shows you.You fall out of love easily.

2008-02-07T22:59:00.000-08:00

FriendshipWhen Leo and Scorpio form a friendship, they often create a vigorous and powerful combination. They understand each other's needs well; Scorpio needs to be respected and desired, while Leo wants to be adored and complimented. They are both strongly loyal, often possessive of one another. Both friends are able to provide what the other needs and enjoy each other's strengths.

RelationshipsLeo and Scorpio tend to have a immediate sexual fascination with each other. But Leo finds it hard to cope with Scorpio's jealousy and possessiveness. Intense, smoldering Scorpio is on a too short fuse, while Leo is much more buoyant. Leo thinks Scorpio difficult and temperamental; Scorpio considers Leo pretentious and a show-off. Scorpio doesn't understand Leo's need to be continually surrounded by an admiring audience. Scorpio would rather dominate than admire, and that doesn't suit Leo's kingly state.

2008-02-05T23:18:00.000-08:00

Wad my Bday says bout me!

You neither want to be interfered nor have the desire to mess with others' life. But you are friendly and occasionally a party animal. You are always in a circle of friends. You often do things in your own way that occasionally go beyond the acceptable limit. People may find you childish and not very attractive in that sense. Your Love, Your fun-loving character attracts opposite sex. Many of those are great. You often find yourself trapped among a few great guys while you have to choose only one.

LEO

The Bottom Line
Gratitude is a necessary ingredient in a healthy sense of pride. Acknowledge others.
In Detail
Your self esteem could be a tricky thing to negotiate right now. As you build it, you could have a hard time balancing a healthy sense of pride with an appropriate level of humility. Patting yourself on the back is definitely a healthy thing to do, but be careful that you don't ignore the contributions of other people. You climbed a major mountain, yes. But you did not scale it alone. Gratitude for services rendered is a necessary ingredient for healthy self-esteem.

you're there for me

2007-06-14T19:04:00.001-07:00

Bunny's all alone.....
in this empty place....

all i have is you...
Only you know wad i want and wad i need... you're the only one who can comfort me..
with these eyes... i dun have to laugh or smile.. and you will know how i feel...
comforting me when i sleep... well.. theres always the other you.. who always smiles back at me..
and makes it unresistable for me to smile back at you... :) you're so adorable which makes it irresistable to hug and kiss..

Back to the first YOU... who is the mainly the one whos always there when i'm happy and when i'm desperately sad... listenin to the words i dun need and dun want to say...

Listening to you sing makes me at ease...

i dun know when will i not need you any more...

maybe never.....

This song is really nice! Listen to the lyrics! those are the words i wish i could say...
(the lyrics are on the previous post)

I'm loving the song "tears" by Xjapan My fav driving song!

Would You?

2007-06-12T09:56:00.000-07:00

Would You Be There for Me?

If I were blue, would you be there for me, And whisper in my ears that's ok.

Would you stand by me, let me hold you tight, And say you love me one more time?

If I feel good, would you slow dance with me, And touch my lips with tender loving care,Would you die for me, would you run with me, And never look back..

Would you be there to love, to be with me? Would you swear that your love is always true?Would you say that you'll always be the one, to take my breath away?

Would you be there to love, to be with me? Would you swear that your love is always true?Would you say that you'll always be the one,to take my breath away?

Would You be there?

If I will wait, would you still think of me? And wished that you could hold me now. Would you die for me, would you run with me, all the way......

Would you be there to love, to be with me? Would you swear that your love is always true?Would you say that you'll always be the one,to take my breath away?

Would you be there to save my soul tonight? Would you swear that your love is always true?Would you say you always be there,to kiss my pain away?

WouLd you be thEre FoR Me?

bunny

2007-04-25T22:21:00.000-07:00

Around here, however, we don’t look backwards for very long.

We keep moving forward, opening up new doors and doing new things…

and curiosity keeps leading us down new paths.”

- Walt Disney

Dreams..

2007-04-24T00:59:00.000-07:00

It was a strange dream

a dream of a sky..
my real self was in the sky

it was a world i've never seen before
coz you know, when we're like this, the clouds are above us

though, in our dreams, the clouds are all under us

In the cracks , between the clouds, we can see the blue of the sea
but... we don't know how far it reaches...
how endlessly they extend...

Poem!

2007-03-01T00:17:00.000-08:00

If Kisses were water, I'd Give You a sea...

If Hugs were Leaf, i'd Give you a tree...

If Spaces were Love, i'd Give u eternity...

and...

If you are True and Sincere to me i'd keep all My love for thee....

For You i will

2007-02-17T06:10:00.000-08:00

When you're feeling lost in the night
When you feel your world just ain't right
Call on me, I will be waiting
Count on me, I will be there
Anytime the times get too tough
Anytime your best ain't enough
I'll be the one to make it better
I'll be there to protect you
See you through
I'll be there and there ain't nothing
I won't do
(Chorus:)
I will cross the ocean for you
I will go and bring you the moon
I will be your hero, your strength
Anything you need
I will be the sun in your sky
I will light your way for all time
I promise you
For you I will
I will shield your heart from the rain
I will let no harm come your way
Oh, these arms will be your shelter
No, these arms won't let you down
If there is a mountain to move
I will move that mountain for you
I'm here for you, I'm here forever
I will be your fortress
Tall and strong
I'll keep you safe, I'll stand beside you
Right or wrong
(Repeat chorus)
(Bridge:)
For you I will
Lay my life on the line
For you I will fight (oh, oh)
For you I will die
With ev'ry breath, with all my soul
I'll give my word, I'll give it all
Put your faith in me
(Put your faith in me)
And I'll do anything
(Repeat chorus)
I will, I will, I will
(Repeat chorus)
I promise you
For you I will (I will)
I promise you
For you I will

Cable Skiing!!!

2007-01-16T19:45:00.000-08:00

Todae had a Really fun day!!! Went Cable Skiing!!!! something like wake boarding without the boat ... lol~!

met lyn n Hy at TPy... den we went to marine parade den WAlked to East coast!! zzzz.. den from east coast entrance to the place very far!! its more den an hour's walk...so we walked to de bicycle kiosk den rented a bike...almost half an hr's of cycle we finally Reached!!! Yesh!! all Ang mo's dere!! and they were so cool la~~ one did a 360 flip in de air...den he looked like he was flying!! de ang mo kids were much cooler! dey tried on all diff kinda boards... lol.. funnie sia..

we waited n stared at them ski for quiet a long while..till finally found de guts to try.. my first tme!! i made lyn go first...lol... den wen de cable came for her turn...we tot it was gonna b easy...in de end.. she flew off her board den splash into de water..ouch.... -__-... scarded le... my turn!!! i was preparing... same thing happened...lol..

den we kept tryin n trying...den there was this wake boarding instructor there..he taught us how to position ourselves...den we realised the whole bunch of ppl dere were actually from SIM wake boarding club! cool! and dat was their instructor..

THe JOKE of the day: damn it...i was de joke... GRRrrr

wen my turn came..i finally stood up on the board!!!! for abt 1 sec...coz i wasnt used to standing as i kept fallin b4 it even started... so wen i finally stood up... i Panick!!!! den i jumpped of the board!! WAahaha.. and i flew in mid air.. somethinig like those stunt de ang mo did...but mine was without the board~~
So embarassing!!! the queue of SIM guys the whole row of them went "wAaaaa" -_-
den HY said i look like frog in de air.. fainted...

(a Lame drawing of the incident)

den after hy n tian go get roller blades...me n lyn continued our journey to standing on de board n moving off...

the ppl there very friendly...de person who pass us the cable asked up to smile n help us position out leg n all... den he called me by my name.. den he asked me where i from (not another wan)..den he tell adjust my position.. funnie sia...i was almost panickin coz my turn le..i scared i ans him den de cable pull me off..lol..

den wen i came bk up.. n lyn was in de water, he put my board on de floor..den gave me personal training on dry land...oomg.. so embrassing... i stood on my board den he used a demo cable and try n teach me... bend leg, lean back..where to hold de cable... lol...

den wen both of us are finally tired...we cycled back to find hy n tian...den after we found dem~~ we took our stuff n cycled to de end of east coast~~~ den super tired le.. den cycled bk to hawker center n ate n drink~~~ den WEnt home~~

now... my whole back muscle and arms are acheing... omg... i cant look on de floor... pain... and my face is burnt... Owwwwww...

some one pls give me aloe vera~~~ or whitening mask... lol!!
(vain pot)

Xmas!

2006-12-04T08:36:00.000-08:00

ITs Christmas time!!!! *Wishes to have a white Xmas~~~*

Can Play in The snow!!!!

Can open Presents!!!!

2006-11-21T23:35:00.000-08:00

This song on my blog is one of my favourites these few days... =)

this is the translation!!

I don't remember when it happened.
I'd get dizzy just thinking about you.
Because my thoughts kept stretching, my heart was surprised.
It's a little awkward that I keep saying to you that "it's nothing"
and that "my heart's just trifling"

Is this love? And if you feel the same way, is this the beginning?
My heart keeps saying it loves you and the more the world listens
the louder it yells it.
Why is it just now that I hear it?
That the love has been found us so we might be together.

Even if I try to explain my feelings, the only true way to understand
would be to become me and feel them.
I'm already inside of you, just how you're inside of me.
I don't know if we've gotten used to the meaning between us.

Is this love? And if you feel the same way, is this the beginning?
My heart keeps saying it loves you and the more the world listens
the louder it yells it.
Why is it just now that I hear it?
That the love has been found us so we might be together.

Now that I think about it, there were so many moments of fluttering.
I'll make up for all the time lost.

I'll be with you and give you only good memories,
so in return you can't leave me.
Even the slightest moments make me feel uneasy
Stay with me

I'm loving you (until then)
like this (only you) already

BLoGg

2006-11-21T22:52:00.000-08:00

Hmmmm... Wondering y i haven Been Blogging bout me? partly is coz i've been busy.. Keke and.......

well..someone once told me... why blog abt ur personal life?? u wan ppl to know everything in ur life? y blog unhappy stuff?? u wan ppl to sympathize u even if u say u don't? den i was thinking.... y blog happy stuff either? it could make ppl who are sad feel bad abt themselves... i guess the person's thinkin is..certain things are meant to be kept for ur own memories and certain things are meant to be shared wif someone close to u( eg. close frenz to make dem feel special)coz if somethings are shared to everyone ur closes fren may not feel that they are special and u wanna share ur happiness n sadness wif them only.. ..or maybe share with those who bother to ask... :)

well.. its how we see things ba... anyways..no one has been reading my blog.. Hee~~

=)

2006-11-15T21:11:00.000-08:00

Wo men Jie huen Ba~~~ =D

august

2006-08-15T09:52:00.000-07:00

August Baby!!

Outgoing personality. takes risks. feeds on attention. No self-control. Kind hearted Self-confident. Loud and boisterous. VERY revengeful. Easy to get along with and talk to. Has an "every thing's peachy" attitude. Likes talking and singing. Loves music. Daydreamer. Easily distracted. Hates not being trusted. BIG imagination. Loves to be loved. Hates studying. in need of "that someone". Longs for freedom. Rebellious when withheld or restricted. Lives by "no pain no gain" caring. Always a suspect. Playful. Mysterious. "charming" or "beautiful" to everyone. stubborn. curious. Independent Strong willed. A fighter.

scdule

2006-08-12T10:12:00.000-07:00

afTer so long~~ i finally blogged! Lol
coz i feel like recording my schedule for dis week!! Wahaha
anyone wanna compare wif me?? ekkee

WED:
2pm - 8pm Dance at my house (7 Remedy)
8pm - 9pm Dinner
9pm - 5am bath n project

Thurs:
12pm - 7pm Project
7pm - 8pm Travel to school
8pm - 12am Dance (SOS n 7 remedy)
12am - 5am bath n Project

Friday:
10am - 11am Bath
11am - 2pm Dance prac in sch (7 Remedy)
2pm - 3pm Travell to inDoor stadium
3pm - 8pm Perfomace(4pm and 7pm slot)
8pm - 12am dance prac in sch
12pm - 1am travel home
1am - 430am project

sat:
8am - 9am Bath
9am - 10am travel to sch
10am - 11am human resource class
11am - 8pm Dance Prac in sch (MRT, Mary J, Black Sweat)
8pm - 10pm Performance
10pm - 12pm Trying to get home (jam coz of fireworks)
12am - 2am Bath, Play WM, Utube etc......

2006-06-27T07:53:00.000-07:00

Juz wanna SHOUT! I HATE YOUR MSN PIC NOW !!!!! _____|_____ and will HATE it Forever! at least till de day i'm GOne from ur life...
Lol

2006-04-23T11:10:00.000-07:00

This song juz Caught my attention~~ :)

I can't remember the last time that we kissed goodbye
All our "I love you's" were just not enough to survive
Something your eyes never told me
But it's only now too plain to see
Brilliant disguise when you hold me
And I'm free
I've been thinking and here's what I've come to conclude
Sometimes the distance is more than two people can use
But how could I have known girl
It was time and not space you would need
Darling tonight I could hold you and you would know
But would you believe
There's a light in your eyes that I used to see
There's a place in your heart where I used to be
Was I wrong to assume that you were waiting for me
There's a light in your eyes
Did you leave that light burning for me
Cards and phone calls and photograph pictures of you
Constant reminder of all the things you get used to
Is there a chance in hell or heaven
That there's still something here to build on
Or do you just pick up the pieces after they fall
But after all
There's a light in your eyes that I used to see
And a song in the words that you spoke to me
Was I wrong to believe in your melody
There's a light in your eyes
Did you leave that light burning for me
Should I keep on waiting or does love keep on fading away
Fading away
It's been a while since I've seen you so how have you been
Did you get my letter I wrote you, but I did not send
I tried to call your old number
But the voice that I heard on the phone
I recognized but she told me the number was wrong
There's a light in my eyes but it's too bright to see
And a pain in my heart where you used to be
Guess I was wrong to assume that you were waiting here for me
There's a light in your eyes
Did you leave that light burning for me

2006-04-22T10:12:00.000-07:00

Todae finally wen For Teq class!!! i sux at it~~~ but.. Gonna try to improve!! Yupyup!! den wen dwn to see levis~~ so hot!!! so crowded!! omg~~wanted to faintz le~~ haven eat also~~ lucky later on wen wif minz to eat fries n LArge ice tea!! Yum!

Den faster rush home to bath n get my clothes... meeting my fren at hotel to change~~
Yesh~~~ easter Ball!! i was dressed as a greek Gal~~ Keke~~` my stupid fren~~ So late!!! so i changed First~~ den ToOk loads of fotos~~~ zi lian abit~~ Lol~~~ den we ate dinner~~~ den Got lucky Draw!!! i Got 11th prize(jean Yip voucher)....Dad Got 9th prize(food processer~~)~~wahaha~~ den while eating..my fren say she cant stop looking at me..coz i look so cute~~ den i fainted~~~ den another person tot i was an angel~~~i'm a greek GAl!!! ROaRRrRR~~~ den while waiting for de grand draw... there was this dance session~~ Disco!! fainted~~~ i juz sat dere..till my frenz n mom forced me to dance~~~ faintz~~ den dance n dance n dance~~~ sweat like crazy~~

the whole day Got red Eye~~~ now its super painful~~ i dunno why~~ wanna die liao~~ how to studie!!!

4 chapt by tonite!! wad m i still doin here????? LOl~~

*gonez*

2 yr 2 mths

2006-04-20T07:50:00.000-07:00

TOdae we Celebrated Our 2yr 2 mth~~ :)

We went to eat...Yupz~~ at dat place..Coz... no where else to GO le.... sianz... but i guess its okaY~~ after a gd nitez slp everything is Forgotten~~ kEke~~ LoVe can make someone forgetful yA? STM... Lol no wonder i'm suffering from it~~ Lol

den after dat wen to watch movie!!!The show SO Sad!! Omg~~ *CrYs* super touching show...KEkE~~ de whole theatre machiam nobody like Dat...like we booked the whole place.. Lol..

WelComg WelcOme!!

den after dat shopped ard....den wen to his place! changed, SleeP... den He went for performance~~ yuppie!

Yawnz..so sleePy~~~

Hmmm... Someone was really funnie todae~~ Lol~~ ever since morning~~ fainted~~ call me at 9am sayin... "Are u awake?" i dunno y dat sentence made me burst out laffing... i felt it was really de joke of de day.. wahha... i'm talking rite?? of coz i'm awake~~!! WAhahahaa!! damn funnie!! *laff n wipes tears away* den someone was acting weird de whole day...talk so fast!! and aLOT also~~ wahaha...abit weird thou...Lol~~ but was funnie! Keke~~

*owe me lots still!*

2006-04-18T13:10:00.000-07:00

Well i guess... u all went to de place we have planned to Go.... somemore he said he was treating me only...well since he treated dem like dat too... i rather not have it at all... i do not EVA wanna be treated the same as dem....

disappointement....

sadness...once again....

maybe nxt time.....they will get to see him more den i do... den slowly i will nv eva get to see him again..

drifted........

cold.......

=(

2006-04-18T08:30:00.000-07:00

I Feel... I Feel... nothing?? Days Go by... i try not to think.... but i guess..in de end i still do....

y muz things end up dis way?? y cant i juz have something i wan? juz for once.....
when will de acting end? i'm tryin to accept his nature.... i did... been thru ups n downs... accomodating to everything he does... supporting him in everything... b dere wen he's down...
guess i shld haf known from de start ba...well...i guess love is blind huh... its painful at times... well.. i juz haf to close one eye ba.... i really see everything...i know wads going on..but i juz choose to ignore... and pretend i dunno anything....well...i guess if i'm upset..he'll b upset too...well i guess...he is happie can le... i hope i'll haf de strength to b strong~~ maybe him not knowing how i feel is a gd thing ba~~ one less burden~~ yupyup~!

Well...at least i've leaernt to forget...of coz wif the help of my B*.. who has done alot in ways whom B* doenst know of.... its all that is keeping me happie lately...
:) i'm thank ful for dat~~

Aniwaes...dat day went to watch movie wif him~~ tOok some neoprint~~~ i loOk so angelic~~wahaha~~ JK~~

2006-04-07T09:42:00.000-07:00

Dunno y feel so... horrible now..... i guess...maybe coz wad i did didnt take into considerations for ppl ba...

and now....u sound so moody juz by talking to me... Hmmmm... regretted Goin todae... but oredi cant b cancelled.... feeling so sorry now....

maybe...i cant make u happie.... but i guess... u're happie juz by certain things ba...videos of someone maybe? or maybe juz by wen de person steps into de rm... can really see u light up... :D now i guess i wish.... dat person can juz say or do something to make u happie again...
i know i cant....

You...Came into my life... Brought happiness wif u....
wen u're happie...so am i.... but wen eva u're sad... i feel like shit...
i really dunno wad to do now... maybe i shld haf juz disappeared...
maybe i shldnt haf disruppted ur life...

Wishing upon my seeds.....
wish i knew wad to wish for...i wish for ur happiness....

wish things wuldt change too thou...

Grossed out

2006-04-06T09:36:00.000-07:00

Why............
the Questiong is Why...........

i really dun understand..... how come he likes to hang out wif so many gals... hug all of them... touch all of them...

all knowing i dun like it.... althou i pretend i dun see...but i juz know....
its a gals instinc....

now i ask... if anyone of u were in my shoes...how wuld u all feel???
why do some ppl know.....and they still do it??? well could b de gals fault.... could be his.... wad eva...
juz hate it.....

juz once i juz feel like saying all theese out...
even if he dun do it infront of me.... i know behind my back wuld b much worse den dis...

yup...

someone pls tell me how not to think abt it...........

wen someone is so popular..i guess... he'll juz b happily in the limelight n forget his limits??? or maybe others may forget their limits???
y cant anyone keep their hands off him.....

*Grossed out...

smilez

2006-03-16T09:07:00.000-08:00

todae.... i was very happie and sad at de same time....
i think god sent dwn some angels to pei wo...care for me...hang out wif me...and bring happieness to my life~~ :) and i thank him for dat~~~

todae...4 msges sent to him..... de whole day...no reply..... so i waited.... lucky got JJJS and W our new member! Lol to take all my sadness away....

i'm leaving tml for msia~~~ now is oredi 2am... nothing from him...his competition is oredi over....is it so hard juz to remember me for a while? maybe juz drop me a msg saying something...even if u're bz..maybe while u're eating or wad can at least spare some time to rem me....is it so hard?
guess...i'm leavin doesnt mean a thing 2 u...its only juz a few days of freeedom without me....
Well...at least i noe JJS will think of me!! Keke~~~ shooo happie to haf dem ard~~~

aniwaes...todae super suay!!!! was supposed to pass YuXing de bOOTs for her comp at zouk~~den i blur blur...wen to sch...den realised i forgot to bring de boots~~!! dieee... den...after classs....i went home to get it.... den at my door..i realised i FORGOT to bring my KEYS!!!! omg....den i ask my dad come home...but he only can b home in a few hrs time.... so i wen bugis meet WJJS ... den we hung out for awhile...den i Gotta Go home~~ to take de BOots!!! den..... SKye pei wo Go home... take le..den we went bk bugis find jess they all~~~
after dat skye n Joyce wen Zouk to watch dem comp~~ wish i could see dem... but.... i condem clubbing... or anything to do wif dat.... sadz... wanted to Go support... but at least... he's happie.... :)

i Forgot 1 more suay thing!!! i left my HP charGER at his plaCE!!!!! i cant use my fone at mSia le la!!! Hai...
today also cannot use much~~~ later no batt!!! muz conserve batt~~~
anyway i'm leaving...

ByeZ!!

Gonna miss u so so much~~~~~
i juz Gotta let de fEEling Go~~~ and enjoy myself!! come bk a new person!! hopefully a better person!!

Love 4 eVA~~~
Smilez 4 Eva~~~

All i wan...

2006-03-14T08:30:00.000-08:00

todae...after class went for prac at de squash court~~ during class was loOkin forward towards prac...Coz can see JJJS...makes me happier~~
after dat we went to holland V...ate subway...but still not as nice as the one at city Hall~~after dat...dey all accompanied me to do hair treatment at chinatwn.. he is also somewhere near by...doin his mosiac thing again... silly of me thinking he wuld come n find me..well..he was wif yen..den later on went to watch movie...
i'm leaving dis friday...i haven even spent time wif him... i understand..he wanna spend time wif his frens... but maybe de least he could do was ask if he culd see me for a while... dat day some one said dis to me...y m i so stupid... y m i always makin the effort to purposely Go dwn to de studio n find him...even if i'm on the other side of singapore...y m i always there wen eva he wans me to.... y do i always go n find him juz to see him even if its juz for awhile... y do i take de same bus wif him...juz to spend more time wif him wen i can easily take a shorter route hm... for me..its juz because i like spending time wif him...i like being in his presence,,,i juz like looking at him....dats y i dun mind being taken for granted...i feel happie doin all those things...but i dunno y wen some1 says dat he's not worth it..i'll think abt it...den i feel so stupid...n sad again....
oredi 2 yrs plus.... all i wan is to see him do something to let me noe i mean alot to him...like maybe sacrificing some of him effort to make a trip dwn to see me juz for 10mins? or more?

i guess....i have to be strong.... he has de freedom to do wad eva he wans...
all i can do is hope...

smilez 4 Eva~~~

i'm happy wen eva he holds my hand...sits n chat wif me in de studio, takes bus home wif me.... den talk at de busstop while waiting for his bus... wen eva he ask me out...when eva i wait for him to ask me out...and he does...i'lll b super happie...

*think of the happie times~~~ rather den de sad?
makes me miss u more....

*wish u are here wen eva i need u...

If u have faith...u can be strong.......

=)

part of me dun wanna leave on friday... and part of me wans to...
Miss everyone here~~ 3 days only.... i noe how skye feels sia...
Lol

:...

2006-03-13T09:58:00.000-08:00

TOdae.... all i can say is Darkness..... and i wasnt scared..... sitting there in the dark...feels gOod.... coz...u're alone...n nobody to notice u... but who wuld aniwae... i'm a lousy dancer... lousy everything.... todae felt left out again...without JJJS... i guess no one wuld really bother abt u...
i Love JJJS coz i can really feel de concern n true frenship.... dey bother to call u if u're goin hm alone... bother to ask if u're alrite.... bother to ask u out.. or call u n chat for no reason...juz becoz dey wanna shaare something part of deir life.... :) glad dat i found dem~~~ hope we'll nv part... i love de times we hang out~~ its de most fun i've eva had~~ :)

and for panda~~~ dun Eva wanna let Go of u.... everything i said todae...was in a spurr of sadness... sorry for evrythig~~ i'll learn to b a better gf~~ Keke~~

/Maple

2006-02-02T09:22:00.000-08:00

This is my introdutcion to My maple!! Keke~~ this post is dedicated to dis Bored gal...Minz~~ Lol~~
So if anyone finds it boring~~ can kill her~~ Lol

Firstly i haf 3 character in this world called Aquilla~~ a lvl 43 mage, Lvl 30 assasin, and a lvl 18 Bandit(very long nv play le dis wan is wait 4 some1 to play wif me de keke~~)

Todae i juz bought a pet panda!! So cute!! and bought a meso magnet (for my pet to help me pick up money de) and i bought a shop!! so i can sell my stuff~~ Lol~~

last time used to haf a pet rabbit...but it turned bk into a doll after 90 days le~~ sadz~~ pet can train till high lvl de... bunny = lvl 10( can talk bk to u de) now my panda is lvl3 only~~ juz bought ma~~
show u all some pics of myself in cash shop( its a place where u can buy clothes n stuff wif money~~ real money!! Sing Dollars!!) ($10.50 can buy 10000 maple money) Lol

Also show u all some screen shots~~ i take wen i wu liao de~~~
now is New yr ma~~ can see cai shen... den can exchange ang pao u find wif mapple money worr~~~

den ar...dat time New yr...i was at home...Everyone counting dwn outside...i was alone counting dwn in maple~~~ Lol~~~ i also took some pic~~ Kekee

DEn ar...dat they me and Kitty (joyce fren) we dared each other...to put "LoOking For maple BF" its to see how many ppl will msg us...or find us...den ar...msg out loud le~~ at free market somemore..den most busiest place in maple~~ in de end...no one came... sadded~~ so we decided to take pic~~ Lol~~ "mei ren Yao"

den todae First day open shop ma...den i kanna cheated le... coz i din noe de prices of certain items...den i sell so cheap...i think my store made a lost~~~ i think of more de 40k... Lol.... lucky Got kitty to help me check out de prices...Lol

PS: Some pics quite funnie...so juz save it to ur comp or click on it ba~~ Keke..some muz see in detail de~~ Lol

2006-01-24T09:59:00.000-08:00

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Your wise quote is: "Love is life.

And if you miss love, you miss life" by

Leo Buscaglia.
Yes, love is indeed what you desire in your

life. If you have it or not is another

matter, but it is in your eyes the most

important feeling. You tend to be a romantic

dreamer and want you and your love to have

that kind of perfect love that you hear about

in fairytales. However that can be hard to

find, but it doesn't mean you are going to

stop looking.

What wise quote fits you? [pics]
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2006-01-24T09:55:00.000-08:00

You need love.
You are a pretty normal, well-rounded person

that just craves that fairy tale love where

you will be swept off your feet and live

happily ever after. Chances are that you

fantasize or dream about it so much that you

either see all the guys/girls as unromantic

or you tell yourself that anyone could be

your soulmate. You long to have someone by

your side and you want to give back on the

romance part too, not just give.

What Do You Need in Your Life? [dark pics]
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2006-01-24T09:20:00.000-08:00

"Floating as a ghost through events, forever

unnoticed"

You are someone who is very lonely in life and feel

like no one ever notice you. Due to this you

lack in confidence in yourself and also have

little belief anything you do matters.

Therefor you are passive to most situations

and let other people take care of it, while

you stand aside. When you have a problem you

keep it to yourself, thinking no one will

care anyway if you told them. In social

gatherings you feel anxious and out-of-place

and like to stay away. When you see someone

having a problem you don't really meddle, not

because you don't care but because you think

they wouldn't want to have you around. A way

you could get noticed is through the

Internet, where you can open up more than you

do in real life.

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Poetic mood

2006-01-22T09:54:00.000-08:00

(My poem To u) if u eva Come here~~

i carry your heart with me(i carry it in
my heart)i am never without it(anywhere
i go you go,my dear; and whatever is done
by only me is your doing,my darling)
i fear
no fate(for you are my fate,my sweet)i want
no world(for beautiful you are my world,my true)
and it's you are whatever a moon has always meant
and whatever a sun will always sing is you

here is the deepest secret nobody knows
(here is the root of the root and the bud of the bud
and the sky of the sky of a tree called life;which grows
higher than the soul can hope or mind can hide)
and this is the wonder that's keeping the stars apart

i carry your heart(i carry it in my heart)

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I do not love you except because I love you;
I go from loving to not loving you,
From waiting to not waiting for you
My heart moves from cold to fire.

I love you only because it's you the one I love;
I hate you deeply, and hating you
Bend to you, and the measure of my changing love for you
Is that I do not see you but love you blindly.

Maybe January light will consume
My heart with its cruel
Ray, stealing my key to true calm.

In this part of the story I am the one who
Dies, the only one, and I will die of love because I love you,
Because I love you, Love, in fire and blood.

=p

2006-01-21T10:50:00.000-08:00

Todae~~ it kinda started of gd n bad.. was really happie gonna meet him~~ den i reach le~~ den i called him ask him where he was...den he said...he chatting wif his fren..i abit sianz diao...den waited for him for abt 45mins at de busstop~~ but i after awhile i not really dat sian le....coz being wif makes me happie..hehe...

den juz now....
chatted wif some frenz~~
they made me realised that they all still care~~~
:)
i wanna thankz:
ariel for letting me noe dat i still remain in her heart~~and in outfitters heart~~ and for blogging how much u care bout me... hehe...

Minz...i totally noe how u feel..maybe its not something we shld question ba~~ juz b happie wif who we're wif can le~~ dere'll b always someone who cares for u...
and muz laways look on de bright side!!

hehe

dat phrase muz thank Qian le...she really enlighten me alot~~ made me feel dat life izzint so bad~~ keke~~ =D

Skyee....thankx for being so kind n really helpful~~ aiyo...dis gal arr... help me dl whole album... she very sweet~~~ can really cheer me up~~ keke in her small little ways~~ lol~~ i think shes a super sweet person..dun judge her by her appearence~~ kekee~~

WAnna Tnk Tang Yuan also~~~ dat day read ur msg.. aiyo.. made my cry in de library~~ lol.. touched... Keke~~~

Meaning ful bus ride

2006-01-13T03:17:00.000-08:00

Hey guys... i've decided to blog again.... alot has happened to me recently... i've nv ever felt so depressed before... this is my first time tearing so much.... during lecture i dunno y tears keep filling my eyes... on my way to sch too... while eating, watching cartoons or comedies~~ i really cant stop it from flowing out...

todae i took bus home wif one of my sim fren~~ we talked abt frenship... den it suddenly occured to me that i may not haf a really true fren who understands me or maybe thinks i'm special to them... i used to think i had lots of frens who really cared abt me... but i guess they care as much to other ppl too... i realised i dun haf a fren who msges u constantly asking if u're ok...or if u wanna go out.. or keep u company when ever u're dwn...tries to cheer u up.... be sad when eva u're sad... always keep u updated abt stuff in his or her life... call u for lunch during their break times or when eva they haf a chance...
now i've stopped dancing... i went bk to watch dem... i'm glad dat someppl are concern bout me or talk to me...but i realised most of them are juniors..
and i haf also juz realised... we're only close frens when we're dancing... we only communicate n bond when we're dancing... but nv really gone out...like watch a movie or wad... i guess my life mostly was so caught up in dance... sometimes may neglect certain frens~~ like jace.. she is someone i can really call a true fren... wishing me gd luck for my exams...rembering my stuff...
My sisters haf their own life....
and... my bf...
things are really good between us...now...
but..i've been thinking... juz like some normal frens..who only shows concern now.. but when u're not wif dem... i think i wuldnt b in their thoughts...
my bf...juz when i needed him most...i realised he isnt there for me...he only shows concern for awhile... den de nxt day... he wuld not even ask how am i.... not even 1 msg... todae...i've msg him i haf a nighmare...it may sound stupid la... but i woke up feeling kinda sad n scared...he nv replied at all...he's having a competition todae... i msg him i was really sad last nite...he didnt even respond...

i guess....he only likes to see me when i'm happy ba.... but wen he is sad...i'm always b there for him....i try being there for him when ever i can.... i make an effort to try see him every day....
but...yesterday... i went back to dat scary place... i told him i was afraid to go there...he didnt even asked how it went... no msg at all no call... he knew i ended class at 5... he didnt call me at all to meet up or wad.... so i went to de studio....
maybe... to him i'm not really impt...

if i'm eva impt to someone... i guess that person wuld try to make me happie... listen to me...feel for me... and maybe knowing i'm sad... wuld keep me company..even if i cant come out..i could always go dwn stairs...
but...maybe i'm asking too much ba~~~

oh well.... my fren told me things happen for a reason.....
maybe this is to see who are really true to me....

well...if i stop going to the studio...would i b forgotten?
if i stop making an effort to meet him... wuld he leave me? wuld he b close someone...den realised she is de one for him.... this is wad i'm always afraid of... maybe....
so many things to worry abt...mayb i shld juz put everything aside... b by myself maybe?

dunno y i'm speaking so much rubbish...but thesse few days really felt really lonely....

i'm sorry to everyone who i've upset....
or neglected.....

A Walk to Remember

2005-10-12T00:39:00.000-07:00

Hmm... Today juz watched this show.. "a Walk to remember" was really touched by the show... coz i think that this kinda love has oredi been extinct... it was really nicce... although i've watched it a million times le but still am very very touched by it~~ keke

heres a phrase from the show i really like..... {Cor 1:13:4-7}

Love is patient, kind, without envy. It is not boastful or arrogant. It is not ill-mannered nor does it seek its own interest.
Love overcomes anger and forgets offenses. It does not take delight in wrong, but rejoices in truth.
Love excuses everything, believes all things, hopes all things, endure all things.

=D

hmm

2005-09-05T07:29:00.000-07:00

This few days really no time to blog.... every dance...aand projects.... almost everyday slept 2 hrs.... every day dance... totally no rest at all... lush dance we dance, nrain dance we also dance, no one dance we also dance.... i really tried to make it to every practice... only din go for 2 practice coz my projects really behind time le...maybe we juz need to prac 100000x harder den everyone ba...
hai... den suntec dat day...i really no comments.....
dun wanna think bout it... its really a moment of failure... hard work doesnt really pay off...but i guess it makes us stronger ya? hopfully everyone is feeling better~~

i wanna thank everyone who cheered for us....
Da jie for all de panda biscuits dat saved me from havin gastirc and for famous amous cookies~~and all the other stuff~~
Er jie for the times she came dwn and recorded us dance, help wif other stuff...
Sophan for helpin us wif de costumes...
minz for de kiss...lol
Dear for de foto...
And eveeryone else for helping us out....
too many to say out... :)

NRA lush muz jia you le~~

:)

2005-08-18T19:23:00.000-07:00

hmmm..dun really have time to blog now....i'll juz say a few stuff~~!

My bday was juz wonderful~~~ everything turned out great!! i was really happy~~ had lots of supprises!!! :)

but deep down inside is hiding something......something.....
this few days...i juz feel like juz being...by myself....sometimes i'm reallly thankful that i'm goin home myself....for the first time...yest night...i enjoyed the quietness around me...enjoyed the cool wind in my hair.. for the first time..i did not run home...iwas even scared... sat at the bench at my house stared at the wonderful sky... seems so....peaceful...

anyway...i wish him all the best in his dance....hope he gets wad he wants~~~ and had always wanted :) i'll pray hard for dat~~

Songs i'm listening to: Wish me happy bday ...... Jet -Look what you've done

"Look What You've Done"

Take my photo off the wall
If it just won't sing for you
'Cause all that's left has gone away
And there's nothing there for you to prove

Oh, look what you've done
You've made a fool of everyone
Oh well, it seems like such fun
Until you lose what you had won

Give me back my point of view
'Cause I just can't think for you
I can hardly hear you say
What should I do, well you choose

Oh, look what you've done
You've made a fool of everyone
Oh well, it seems like such fun
Until you lose what you had won

Oh, look what you've done
You've made a fool of everyone
A fool of everyone
A fool of everyone

Take my photo off the wall
If it just won't sing for you
'Cause all that's left has gone away
And there's nothing there for you to do

Oh, look what you've done
You've made a fool of everyone
Oh well, it seems like such fun
Until you lose what you had won

Oh, look what you've done
You've made a fool of everyone
A fool of everyone
A fool of everyone

Clear blue sky.......

2005-08-16T02:54:00.000-07:00

*wipes swweat* finally 2 projects over...have been relly busy wif projects and dance... always not enuff slp...lucky god sent me an angel to help me... :) todae juz did the hair model thingy~~ it was soooo cool!!omg...took lots of foto...especally wif sunji and sunny!! the two coolest hair stylist!! not to mention delin's cousin who dyed my hair nicely~!! lol... anyway.... todae was... i dunno....
was meant to be?
i kept calling him after my hair thingy...coz he said he'll b in town... and no ans..so i went for lunch wif mae... the most amazing thing happened~~ we really talked alot! hmmm... she scraped the mud off my eyes and let me see things clearly... wad i actually taught of was actually true...din noe i was so accurate de..maybe coz i'm sensetive bout stuff ba...

while we were talking...dis jap guy waved to me...i tot my fren sia! den after dat i saw him outside nydc trying to take foto...den i hid myself wif mae..lol... den think he couldnt get a clear shot...then he came in and asked if he could take foto...den mae say better not...den in de end nv..lol..

hai...after the chat..i took bus home...looking out de window...thinking abt everything...now every thing makes sense......everything.....

*everything happened for a reason.....glad i got to haf lunch wif u....*

:)

2005-08-04T08:41:00.000-07:00

todae...was actually quite fun...

morning was late for class...wahaha... too tired le... din even go for SnW...lol... i was really sleepy...den in class... yan yan she saw my half closing my eyes...den brought out doggie!!! my eyes immediately lite up!! omg!! was so happie!! lol... den thru out de wholesson i was awake..wahaha...we really can crap sia.. lol..

den after class i went for project meeting...half an hour only...den after dat i took a cab down for de acting thingy... damn it sia...de gal msg me farrer rd...but i reach there..den i called her..coz cannot find blk 9...den she told me its at farrer park mrt dere..de place is called farrer park rd..omg...freak!! diff place sia...i faster call ariel..i scared she angry...coz she not enuff slp very cranky...lol...den reach dere de acting thingy no need script de...wen to de lady's house to change..den we juz walk here n dere act lor..wahaha...de ah pei damn funnie sia...btw de show is called "one dirty min" lol..omg.. ah pei is a born actor sia..dey juz found him at de void deck de...lolz...
after dat me n ariel took cab bk to studio for prac..after dat wen for rehersal...
omg..they took so long sia...den i actually fell asleep until our turn...wahaha...
den after rehersal we went bk studio...den ann saw us awhile...den left le..den got ppl wanna use studio...so we siam! lol..
den after dat we discuss of where to go...blk 16 too far le...lucky sophan found a classroom..unlocked n got aircon...
den we watch horror movie dere...omg...so scary!! amety horror!!! i watch before le...but stilll very scared..lol... *wish u were dere* but den again...if u were dere..i dun think u'll sit wif me...

anyway...3/4 of de show i was coverin my eyes...screamin and scaring orange n ariel...lol..joyce suppose to take cab wif me de..but she dun wanna leave..so i haf to stay wif her until show end..lol
wanted to ask mommy to come dwn bring me up..lol...den i think de cab uncle heard...lol...damn funnie sia...wen i got dwn..he offered to send me to de lift...wahahah.....

yawn...muz do proj le...tml 11 got rehersal again..zzzzz

lalala

2005-08-03T10:10:00.000-07:00

hmmmmmmmm.

lemmi think of happie things todae~~~
now muz try to write my happie tots~~ lolz.....

hmmmm

OH~!!! i finally started my pair project le!! yay!!! lol... and hor.. wen i got bk home....my fren juz show me pic of 4 doggies~~ toy dogs la... soooo cute!! den she ask me to choose which wan i like... keke
happie sia!! tml i can get a puppy!!!! lol...

and hor...tadae dance hor... i was napping...den ar...suddenly felt something in my face~~~guess wad??? PAnDA Biscuit!!! DA Jie buy de~~ hehe!!! imagine wake up and see ur fav biscuit in ur face~~ lol...like some excited kid~~ lol

now kinda tired le..but need to do proj~~!!! gambette!!!!

actually kinda stress la..got proj, dance, work!! family... omg....
dis weekend dad juz told me got dinner...den ar...i got work...now muz think of how to escape dinner...haiyo...

zzzz

2005-08-01T12:47:00.000-07:00

yawnz....
now is 4am in de morning...i'm sitting in de living room all alone... bitten by tones of mosquitoes.. or maybe juz on fat n greedy one...lol...

todae dunno y not dat tired...i think i sprained my elbow slighty..cant really brush my teeth without squirming in pain..lol.. dunno y my shoulder still hurting...hmm.. i dare not see doc..firstly, no $$. secondly, i dare not noe de results...lolz.. i still wanna dance de...
actually quite sad...coz my mom juz told me dat i cant even go for wed normal dance class...hai...she said dat i look more n more scrawny...i dun think so worr...dunno y parents cant understand..dance is de thing dat is actually letting me relax... well..at least from school work..and it helps me keep my mind of stuff...

now sch projects very luan..so many stuff to do...den all my project mates one goin for holiday wen we haven even started on our project which is due soon!!! and the other proj...my team mates keep absenting demselves... sadded.. my sms bill very high le la... i keep needing to inform dem on stuff...arrange meetings...hai yo...

*missing you*

dance...

2005-07-29T10:03:00.000-07:00

This few dance feel really worn out...mentally n physically...hai...
yesterday....morning wen for SnW dance class at 8am..lol..den after dat went for class......den fell asleep a few times in class..my fren poked me n i screamed...embarasssed sia... den after class went bugis to but our costumes...in de end end up buying lots of stuff...i think i spend ard 70 bucks...hai yo...feeel so poor..sniff...

todae had dance...at first was fine de...den after dinner...hmm..some how everyone looked really sad...sniff... felt depressing also... coz i think we were demorilze... yea... now i'm so tired... i was supposed to do my project...individual de..i need to pass!!! or i'll fail my module...die...its due soon... and sop are my 4 other projects... all due in august... Suntec is in Aug!!! omg... so many stuff in aug man.... hai...so dead sia....

everytime i dance i think of my projects...den i sianz diao...legs feel so suan... den come home..i will juz K.O...no time to do proj le...
so dead.....

zzzz

2005-07-24T09:02:00.000-07:00

Dunno WAd to say...but...

Left out....

but glad... There are still ppl ard to make me happie..
=)

Thankx sis n all my frens~~~

zzzz

2005-07-21T09:40:00.000-07:00

Todae so tired!! omg!!!! mornin class... den after dat rush to shang grila for rehersal... omg!! de guy sang phantom of de opera so Wonderfully!! i tot was radio sia!!den after dat carry super heavy bag...go town...get costumes..shoulders almost broke...super tired sia!! omg..my eyes can bearly open....

after town..went bk to school for dance prac... omg!!! REmix comin soon!! oomg!! panic!!! not ready sia..a few days nv dance le...almost forget steps sia...dieeee.....we need more prac...todae's prac only a few of us...i dance wif my eyes close...haha..seriously cannot open....zzzz..
i go slp le...
CMI....Cannot Make IT le... haha,,,
zzzzzzzzzzzzz
*gones to dream land*

bad day

2005-07-19T08:38:00.000-07:00

Todae was really bad sia...

i tot i was late...coz meeting my frens at 1230 for lunch and to sign up for de workshop...late le...so i took cab instead...$8...hai... den wen i reach dere...my frens haven reach yet....so i went to sign up for de workshop first.... den de lady told me...no more slots!!!!!!! OMG!! full house... i need de workshop!!!! how am i gonna pass my module!!!!! ARRR!!! freak..de lady yesterday said i can come bk todae ma..coz..yest no more form le...den she said todae lor...den de lady todae said..i should haf paid first yesterday...WT!!!she said need form ma!!! !!ARRGGHH!! dunno la... damn pissed.. den "HE" asked me out todae ask me accompany him go buy stuff..den i told him i not free coz of de workshop...den i called him up after de lady said no space...who noes!!! he oredi called his fren to go wif him...den i sian diao... he said his fren haven confirm wif him yet...so i went to hang ard in school for abt half an hr plus..den i called him bk..coz i really boreed to death le..den he said he goin wif his fren..i mean if fren oredi confirm..juz call me n tell me la... so i no need to wait ma... haiz..... very sad lor.... lucky jolene was free...so i went j8 wait for her...den we hung out there till dance class...

dance ar...omg...i think NRA anyone can dance better den de seniors there... too bad ryan went LA... anothwer teacher came and taught us...she very pretty..too bad not hiphop...it was ermm..mtv jam...lol...dunno wad was dat..den there was this irritating person...lol...reminds me of someone...lol..omg.... kept correcting us sia...think he like some pro lor...lol... he smells funnie... haha... =x

after dat took cab down to church...learnt bout interesting stuff todae...
learnt bout other gods... merci...compassion.... got lots of nice pics...
learnt dis "do NOT do unto others as you would not have them do unto you." "Do unto others as you WOULD HAVE them do unto you."

P.S Thankx for cheering me up and sending me cute pics!

Corrinne MAy

2005-07-18T08:19:00.000-07:00

*You are all that I need
The only treasure I see
You're the air that helps me breathe
through the darkest night
When I fall down on my knees
I was blind but now I see
You are all that I need*

When no one far from perfect
Like a child that needs a guiding hand
Can you stay here with me
I finally understand
You've always been the missing part
Complete the jigsaw puzzle of my heart
Please hear me when i say

Please let me hear your voice again
Let me hear you say your love will never end
That whatever it takes you'll be there
When I say

Yawn

2005-07-14T07:46:00.000-07:00

yawn...todae couldnt wake up.....
last nite got some dream...dreamt dat i was at de beach(east coast park) sitting on some bench...de feelin was dat i din wanna go anywhere...i could juz sit dere for Hours...lol..was kinda like a sad feelin instead of happie n calm...lol...

todae got RTHK dance...Yawnz...really tired...dance n dance n dance... my shoulder really really hurts...and at de end of de day...my back hurted lots too.... hai..muz b my stupid back..so heavy... at first todae i was kinda happie de...until dance 1 more time before de break...i accidentally knocked into someone...den i was trying to annalyse how it happened...maybe i was doin de wrong thing or wad..but i annalyse le..tried it out a few more times...den dat someone tried askin me to do something.. to me it sounded like askin me to change my hand's position...which makes it diff from my fren...den dat person sounded really fustrated wen i tried to say it was diff...den dat person kept explaining stuff..i really dun understand... den dat person said "ARGH! blah blah blah" den stomped off to de chair behind n looked super angry, pissed off...den felt so sad lor.... i totally dunno wad was i did wrong...cant u explain nicely and slowly....dunno y now adays dat person keep getting pissed of at me for small little reasons...

no one really noes dis..but i get really Tramautised wen someone so close to me keeps getting angry for small reasons... it brings back old old memories..... SCary memories....

well...at least dat person appologised to me on de bus home...i think coz dat person saw me really sad ba...its always like dat wan... 1 small little sorry can make me forget everthing.... hai...
*slaps myself* CANNOT XING RUAN SO EASILY!!!!!

todae din get to see kitty...neighbour took it home... sadded... i miss my kitty....
always looking so cute...always climbing on my lap and snuggling up in it...

dat is some kinda love dat i really like alot...
dis bunny needs lots of cuddles, little squshy hugs, Lots of CAre and concern... and mostly longing for someone to pamper her...hehe
*Dreamz*

hmmmm

2005-07-10T08:38:00.000-07:00

Todae i was abt to go out..i saw dis small little kitty at de bus stop...omg...it was sooo cute!!! somemore abt to rain le..i bu heng xin leave him dere...so i carried him in my bad and brought him home..actually outside my home..haha... mommy will kill me sia...den i put it in a shoe box and gave it some milk and water...and got some fish fillet for him.... left him in de box at de stairs..hopefully he stays well..his eyes seemed swollen n watery...maybe scared until cry too much ba....tml mornin b4 school i better check on him...

hmmm...dancce is alrite...very tiring but i like it coz...it'll help me Lose my FAts!! and help me improve on my dance technics..but sometimes...really afraid i'll let my grp dwn...coz my mom does not approve of me dancing..i only can dance once a week...which is wed...so de rest of de days will haf to lie to her...hai... hate it sia..den somemore..wen eva i come home she'll scold me non stop..i nv even ding zui...she can tok for hours de...serious!!! i cant be bothered to reply...dunno wad to tell her dis sat goin for remix...hai....

MY LOVE LIFE.....dunno wad to say.... we juz dun communicate well.... we dun haf those lovy dovey talks anymore...until i cant really rem wad it felt like.. all we tok abt is wad normal frens wuld tok abt.... now...things haf really changed...wen eva he's fustrated wif me or wad...he'll use "DAT" funnie fierce percing tone to me.. i HATE it to de core!! i really dun feel it anymore...dun feel de care n concern anyone in love wuld gif... now its getting worse...i'm afraid... afraid...it comes to a point where i wuld really grow tired...... coz i know i love him too much le...dat i zai yi alot of things..... dats y 'm afraid i will be tired of all this easily... each time he does something or says something dat pierce thru my heart..i wuld bear a small grudge... hope it doesnt grow really big... coz now its oredi accumulating le.... dunno when is de limit.....

6/6/04 is de date where everything went dwn...dat is de date where i felt de love haf depleted... he doesnt care anymore..its all abt himself now..... i now he has dreams to fullfill...maybe i'm juz not in it.... u cant haf de best of both worlds... Best dancer...... gf...... i think....he cant fit both into his life... maybe one day..i'll be pushed out totally...de process has oredi started.....

A FEW MeanIngFul QuoTES~~~

"love each other or perish" Without love, we are birds with broken wings.

"Friends care for u, but its not the same as having someone who will not leave. It's not the same as havin someone whom u know has an eye on you, is watching u the whole time."

"This is part of what a relationship is about, not juz love, but letting others know there's someone who is watching out for them."

"IF You are trying to show off for people at de top, FORGET it. They will look down at you anyhow. And if you're trying to show off for people at the bottom, FORGET it. They will only envy u. STatus will get u no where. Only an open Hear will allow u to flost equally between everyone."

hihi

2005-07-02T09:05:00.000-07:00

too long nv blog le..coz juz got new comp.. yup! hmm...so much has happened dis few day.... feeling really down..... firstly.. my 2 good frens juz decided dat we cant be frens anymore...... hai...and both of dem told me dat on de same day... suay rite? and they are not eveen related.... hai...den secondly.... sk...he's been busy... i really need him but he aint dere.... so dat day after scratch prac..i rushed down to youth park..hoping he could spend some time with me after his prac.... wen i got there, he was practising..so i watched from a far (opposite de road to be exact) ..den we they all are sitting down i faster crossed de road tot he was rdy to go...who noes/..dey sat dere for quite long...so i continue waiting...den dey started to dance again...so i crossed back to the other side...dis happened a few times...haha...ppl think i siao...crossing so many times... den after 2 hours of this...i tot they were finally done...it was ard 11pm plus...dey all were sitting dwn..and was watching videos on sk's comp..hai...i really couldnt wait le... so i faster booked a cab home...$10.50... after all dat waiting i still din get to tok to him... well any way....at least i saw his whole dance..coz i cant go dwn and support him de next dat.... dats de third thing i'm upset abt..... i dun think he will eva appreciate de stuff i do ba...

i dun really expect something in return... but sometimes..all i wan is maybe some concern..and not to b ignored... especially in front of his frens...he'll faster let go of my hands wen his popular frens are in around....maybe i'm juz some piece of shit dat will embarasse him ba....

todae...after performance i wanted to say good bye to him b4 i leave for home...but..he was reluctunt..had to ask him to come away from his frens and come to at least give me a hug goodbye... den wen he was approaching me...he walked straight for de rest of de nra first...den last of all wen dey walked almost away..den he came to say bye to me...hai.... den wanted to drag ariel b4 i went home to find for him..but den i stopped my self.. haha...

i took 162 home my self...was listening to guang liang's album... den all de memories started flowing back to me... tears filled up my eyes...den i faster tot to myself...its not worth it to cry over a guy who makes u cry....so i faster took y book of life out...and started to read...with de music...de sad story abt this dying man...de tears juz flowed out...lucky i was wearin my cap...or else de lady sitting nxt to me wuld have tot i'm some crazy freak..i faster wipe it off wif my finger casually... haha..

i tot dat if i reacdh home everything will be fine...and wuldnt think so much..but wen i reached home...mom kept nagging and scolding....she threatened also...
sad...i'm not only feeling like a prisoner in my own home..but prisoner to my comp too...she wuldnt even let me play awhile...and its not even 11pm yet... she juz said "GO TO UR ROOM AND STUDY" freak!! i haven even start school u noe@@@...and i need to study?!?!?!?! hai..i dunno la...wishing someone could understand wad i'm goin thru...

sk juz called....he won first!! i'm really happie for him...but at de same time...i'm really in a depression mode....my voice sounded sianz.. but i really juz cant bring my self to even force a smile....or my happie voice.. i hope he wuldnt think i'm not happie wif him winning and making more neew frens...

but actually i'm also kinda scared...wif more new frens...my place in his piority list juz becomes further from first le... hai....

Finally...i'm really happie for ariel...At least everything is working out fine oredi!! and for sam...hai..hope she dun over pressurise herself....sadz to see her always so sad...i dun even noe how to comfort her...sobz,,,

i wish.....everything for me wuld turn out fine too.... :)

***Sometimes u cannot believe wad u see, you have to believe what you feel. And if you are ever going to have other people trust you, you must feel that you can trust them too---even when u're in the dark. Even when you're falling......***

hmm

2005-06-22T09:20:00.000-07:00

hai... firstly...feeling kinda down...seeing all my frens so sad..and i cant even do anything to help... firstly min...haiz... she prac for dis comp so long le...den suddenly hurt her leg..den cannot dance...actually is can de..but den for her own sake...she better not...and got replaced...hai..
den another is ariel hai...see her so hurt....those sad eyes....de fake laughter... de trying to be strong and happie look... i dunno how to help her either... but hope she can faster find her xing fu..and settle dwn...and get her happie funnie self back...

sigh...todae...dunno y feel kinda drifted from him...he didnt really tok to me... i sat next to him during lunch...usually he'll hold my hand..but...i waited...he didnt...i think he touched other ppl more den he touched me...den after dance...kinda happie he hugged me...but den again...in ann's car...he din even hold my hand orlooked at me...he was leaniing forward..usually he wuld... but now... hai...i dunno la... den i juz leaned on de window...cloed my eyes... waited for de pain to subside... after dat wen we got down... usually we wuld tok...miss a few cabs... before i wuld actually flag for mine.. but todae...after we got down..he ask me to flag for cab immediately... at first i tot we could at least hang ard wif each other for a while but...hai...after wad he said..i immediately went for de cab... stupid uncle came so fast...we juz hugged good bye... if i looked back at him..i wuld have cried n de cab..missing him so much... so i juz act cool..and cold... and waved and juz left......

*crys*

*missing u badly*
wish it was 1 year ago...........

wish u can be more seriously....
treat me more seriously....
i wuld once in a while wanna feel pampered and loved and care for deeply..
wish u knew.........
how diff it is juz to love u......

song

2005-06-21T09:34:00.000-07:00

HMmm.... dis song is dedicated to me and myself.. *imagining HIM singing it to me* *sighs*
(sitting in an open field with loads on green land....breeze blowing sweeping all my hair from my face....As he looks deeply in my eyes....he strums his guitar...) *sings*

I wanna make you smile, whenever you're sad
carry you around when your arthritis is bad
all I want to do, Is grow old with you

I'll get your medecine when your tummy aches
build you a fire when the furnace brakes
oh it could be so nice growing old with you

I'll miss you, kiss you, give you my coat when you are cold
need you, feed you, even let u hold the remote control

Let me do the dishes in our kitchen sink
put you to bed when you've had to much to drink

I could be the man who grows old with you
I wanna grow old with you

*CryS*

(anyone wans de song can ask from me) nice sia!!

sad life

2005-06-20T06:59:00.000-07:00

hai...
today finally got to stay home and rest de...coz last week haf been dancing and everynite nv get to come home and eat...and wen i finally do... mom keeps screamiing in my ear...for once i juz neeed sme peace and quiet..she keeps asking me to do dis and dat...sk me y i nv do dis and dat... and keeps comparing me to other ppl's daugher... den she also keeps asking me to study, clean my room... and she even keeps nagging me abt de kinda boys i need to mix wif... blah blah blah.... and all de marriage stuff... i feel so stressed up sia... haiz.. y cant i juz love who eva i wan...do wad eva i wan... i'm oredi grown up...i noe wads rite for me and i knoe wad i wan..if dey keep interfering..i wun be able to make myown decisions on my own anyymre... u noe..de more dey say something de more i will dode opposite...its like u actually feel like helping dem..but after dey said y i'm not doin it...i really dun wanna do it le... u noe wad i mean?sounds chim la.
haha...haiz...dunno wad to do le la...
damn stressed on ads comin for me next...
gotta cope wif sschool, projects, dance comp, family, exams..
and most of all...i'm afraid i wun haf time for him... will miss him alot de... seeing him makes my life happier and makes all my worries go away i guess...
sniff...

hmm..i dunno wad to say or feel

2005-06-19T10:39:00.000-07:00

Hmm...long time nv write le...coz of lots of prac for our remix comp..which is todae... and omg... WE got in!! din noe we could...but...hehehe....yay!! den muz learn BAD's cheoro...diff sia...teach so fast...and de style...haha...totally diff form wad we're doin now...but its interesting...learn new styles...haha reminded me of my first Ooh La La comp...exactly same style...haha..

haiz...kinda sad also la...last nite slept at 4am...was tokin to sk...juz brought up some matters...like de tones n way he toks to me...hai...but i think its not gonna change..haiz..i also dunno wad to say.... i feel like something is missing in our relationship... maybe i love him more den he loves me...dat y i feel dat maybe i'm not getting enuff attention from him..sometimes dun really feel dat de stuff he does comes from his heart..juz for de ske of doin...
hai...sometimes i do wish we wuld send me home...ask me how i am...massage me wen my back hurts...help me carry my bag wen my shoulder hurts...look me in de eye and say those romantic stuff..haha...or better yet..spend some quality time wif me... without saying.."but here got nthing to shop lei.." hmm..cant we juz walk ard...and not matter bout anything but each others presence?...hai... i dun understand him anymore... sometimes...really wanna cry...coz sometimes...u're juz waiting for him to do something but he nv does it...and u juz keep waiting..... and sometimes really hurt by de words he say...like "y cant u do dis??!?!" "HOw come u muz do dis" "Y muz u EAt??" well..I'M HUNGRIE!!! Duh!! "Y CaN't u Eat later?" or "u juz ate!!! ( a few hours ago)" hai.......cant he juz tok to me nicely?? like how he does wif his frens?? i really envy dem...
everytime he says such hurting stuff i wuld juz turn away...and wipe de tears off my face.and smile..musnt let anione see...sometimes things may seem ok...but actually...its not ok....de love is juz not there anymore...i want it back...from him... i juz dun feel it.....sad to say.....
nowadays we hardly tok long on de fone anymore...he's always tired wen he calls me...i mean..y cant he juz sacrifise his game time n tok to me...or something...its like he hardly ever sacrifise for me...he rather do something else den do something dat includes me...hai........

i think i'll juz go on and ignore all de bad stuff....smile and hopefully i will b happier ba... cry behind close doors ...will nv let him noe...dun wan him to b in an awkward position....to an wei wo...
but really...every gal hopes... hopes dere will b a guy she loves who can take care of her and not the other way round...
i mean...if u love someone u wuld wanna do stuff for dat persn rite?? well... i dun see anything much being done... not even a simple long hug and dun let go.. i used to get...

sobz.....
crys......
sniff......

any way..i sould be thankful le la..at least i get to see him...some ppl dun even get to see de person she loves as and wen she wans....
:)

but really...i do envy other couples who look so loving together.....
:)

competition finals is in july...school starting le..hopefully i still have time ba...
scared...

i wan someone who can always stand by me wen i'm sad...be there always we i need him..hold me up wen i fall...

haa

2005-06-07T08:52:00.000-07:00

haiz........

i think they should make a book on how guys should understand gals...
or at least make their brains bigger and egos smaller.......

long hetic day

2005-06-04T09:45:00.000-07:00

todae was really along day.... firstly went for de auditions...den knew abt some complications...wif chinese dance and nra...din noe de cute n sweet lao shi was so......ermm...unreasonable...tot she was kind and al...but...haiz...den somemore...her students gave face to us...tried to chase us out...blah blah... and all de funnie excuses...yaya... rude...especially dis freakin guy...wtf... felt like punching him in de face...pluckin all his eyebrows out! scold my sis... shouted at my teacher..and he still dare say we give no respect to their teacher... and he was like scoldin bun and anne infront of anne...hahah...stupid..he is de one wif no respect...freak! made my sis cry....idiot! but anne was really cool in handlin de situation!she n her sarcasism..ahha..
den we all shifted all our freshie to de sports deck...den wen it was RTHK prac... ariel came le... den see her stand dere alone...den went up to her...den sniff... she also cry le...haiz...seeing all of my frens so sad..i also more sad le... but muz try to be happie or else everywhere will b filled wif sadness... so i try to smile..hope dat works! haha....
PSC was great! nra go in again!! happie!!! but...duno la... todae heard alot of somebody...kinda feel sorrie for him..since i knew him for such a long time...but den again...he pisses me of wif de stuff he does...haiz........so many mixed feelins..also juz noe how much of a flirt he is.....feel really grossed out...i hate flirts!!! especiallythose guys who go for a few gals at one go..yucks!! finally saw jace!!! updated her...we'll took again soon ba...maybe can clear up some stuff...

wen we went home....dun feel like sayin le.. i admit its my fault...causin him to spend money...but theres is still somethings he dun understand..... he dun understand how much of a diff it is for me to tell him to do something and for him to do de something on his own account.. aiya..sounnds chim la... but dats howgals are...dey actually haf second meaning wan...de guys haf juz got to go figure! and he doesnt really understand his gf... well i wuld rather choose him spendin de money on doin something sweet for me...rather den him treatin me eat...dunno la...sometimes its like dat ba..i guess it depends on situation...
well my mind is not thinkin straight these few days...dunno y la...juz feelin super moody...depressed mostly...i dun show it...but ya,..its inside of me...
lucky todae wore my cap home...lucky he was walkin in front.....lucky he din see me sobbin all de way...lucky him i guess... dun wanna put him in a diff situation...
haiz...

de ppl who understand me are de wrong ppl...haiz........
i better cheer up ba! tml is gonna b another day!!!
:)

Be strong!!!!

2005-06-03T07:23:00.000-07:00

haiz..... todae went to e hospital to visit my grandpa...haiz...mom said it doesnt look good.. den my relatives were tokinto de doc....and i was like holdin grandpa's hand....mom was massagin his arm...wipin sweat off his head and tears off his eyes... he cant speak to us...and his eyes can hardly open...he can hardly breath... lookin at everyones teary eyes...really saddens me....but i juz kept it all inside... althou de tears were almost flowin out... haiz.... i juz kept holdin on to his hand...bendin down till my back hurts again... but i didnt care... everyone is tryin to be strong...i should too.
juz pray to god...hope everythin will b alrite....

*if i eva seem to b quiet...it means i dun really feel like tokin...maybe juz need a shoulder to lie on...

pls dun scold or blame me for anything.....

p.s...dear if u eva read dis...sorry for makin u mad at me..sorry for irritating u... sorry for troublin u.... sorrie....
but thnkx for being by my side! =)

Haiz...

2005-06-01T10:09:00.000-07:00

dunno why todae feel kinda depressed... firstly.... s&w..... i finally looked at myself dance in de mirror le...coz deres no one standin nxt to me for me to copy... den i realised i dance until ver sucky.... haiz... den secondly.... suntec! we haven start yet!! other groups start le but not ours!! i finally noe y...on de way home...anne told me dat our whole group muz get together first...i'm not really sure of wad it meant la...as in...get together n prac first or....be all present...den she'll start on ours..haiz....duno la..we muz jia alot of oil le la.. den i see my frens so depressed...and i cant do anythin abt it...also feel really sad de... den finally..dear ar.....haiz....dunno wad to say la..... stupid pig! always make me feel like i wanna kick him...coz of de stuff he does...and de stuff he says... very insensetive... but wen u wanna get angry if him also cannot...coz some how he'll still make me happie..and forget bout de bad stuff...haiz....

RTHK prac

2005-05-30T09:19:00.000-07:00

so tired.... todae ran 1 break 2 rounds ard de track...no staminar sia.... den i slack since 1 plus till 6 plus..den started training...
my back hurted after dancing for awhile...but muz ren!!!! training more impt!! i sux at dancin sia...see everyone ard me...all pro de.. muz jia you!! my toe hurts... and worst of all my right soulder has been hurting for 1 week le.... sniff...gotde sprain feeling...hopefully its not baa... cannot carry my bag on de shoulders...wish got someone carry for me...haha.... sianz...i think i'm good at Ren-ing le...hahahaha...... muz bear all de pain n dance!!!!!!!!!! den todaae headache too...muz be de aircon...head felt bloody...cant really concentrate....haha... damn......den after dance...went home alone...walk de dark path... kinda scary...i tot de leaf was a dead raat...den my house dwnstairs got a few blacks sittin dere partyin...drinkin...scary...all big sized de...
tired le.....play abit maple den slp ba.... tml at home slackin again...... sobz....

boreeddddddd

2005-05-29T20:10:00.000-07:00

yawns.......so boring....everyones in school...i wanna dance.!!! dunno if i should get a job or to slack....coz..school reopening soon..i might as well slack n relax first...schoool reopen le..no more chance.... sniff...
i dread goin to school...
dunno if got time for suntec anot...but i will definately make time for it de... but i think i'll b dead tired...haha...oh well.. at least sim is juz nxt to school!! haha... juz downloaded zoo tycoon....my zoo looks promising!! hahaha... anyone can teach me how to put pics into my blog????? been wanting to do dat...but dunno how.... i oreedi got a photo bucket thingy le...next..dunno wad to do...i sux at dis...
madagascar squrrial soooooo cute!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
haha

open arms...

2005-05-26T07:34:00.000-07:00

Lying beside you, here in the dark
Feeling your heart beat with mine
Softly you whisper, you're so sincere
How could our love be so blind
We sailed on together
We drifted apart
And here you are by my side

So now I come to you, with open arms
Nothing to hide, believe what I say
So here I am with open arms
Hoping you'll see what your love means to me

Living without you, living alone
This empty house seems so cold
Wanting to hold you, wanting you near
How much I wanted you home

Will U Come back?
Will u turn my night into day?
Will u stay??
I need u to stay....

sux...its happin again... tired le....

2005-05-25T20:25:00.000-07:00

Haiz...Feel super depressed... firstly... supposed to meet areil for madagascar todae..den watch wif sk n ken...den dey no money watch so postpone to next week... den i tot well...at least i get to meet sk...was lookin forward to todae...so can spend time wif him..but den again.. i asked him juz to confirm...if we were still meeting...was also supposed to bring to de dentist...den he said....maybe he goin wif his fren..coz he's fren say go wif him...and fren got nothing to do...den i sian diao...den i juz say u go wif him...i asked u first lor...and i was supposed to go wif ariel to buy stick and i cancled her instead juz so dat i can meet him...den he tells me dis... wtf... i feel like some spare tyre...ur fren not free den meet me...fren free den rather meet fren...haiz.... Den somemore de movie has been postpone to next week..den he tells me dat he gotta do project...no need watch le..i think i also wun get to see him at all le...besides wed..during DANCE.. and its not spendin time...its juz lookin at him only...*crys* den last nite we tok on de fone.... i really think he very insensetive...well at least only towards me...other ppl he is so willing to be dere for dem...massasge for dem...take care of dem so well... haiz...i dunno la.... last nite couldnt sleep...tears juz kept flowin... hate to do dat...arGh!!!! i feel damn stupid...always doin dis kinda dumb stuff... always putting him as my first piority... damn it... *slaps myself* WAke up gal!!!

*All words and no Actions*

Wo hen lei le...........

*does it eva occer dat i may need u? and dat u're mostly not dere?
i guess i'm not needed anymore...you got wad u wanted....
guess u're happier now.... :)

i juz wish he could show more concern...or at least ask me..."hows ur toe? or hows ur back? or maybe help me massage....or carry my bag...or wad eva..
haha...dreamin only.....
it only happens to other ppl...will nv eva happen to mede...hahahahhahahahah.....

zzzz

2005-05-23T09:53:00.000-07:00

todae got RTHK dance...but b4 dat kinda got a little sad...sk was back to de fierce tone thing again..wen i asked him to buy food for me...sniff..dunno y he is so against me eating...din have lunch ma...and was hungry ma..sniff...dunno la...
aniwaes...dunno y feelin kinda sad lately..mybe coz..everyone's goin bk to school le...den dear also no time for me le..juz miss him lor...
but sometimes i think he doesnt miss me anymore.. wen i say 'i miss u' i dun even hear a reply...saded...but its alrite...i juz gotta live wif it.. keke
nw i'm officilly broke..juz bot my new ez link card n keyboard..really broke le..
tired....
i think i go find a job tml...newspaper!!

fen6 bday..

2005-05-21T20:04:00.000-07:00

om6 xuanfen6 bday so fun lor.......but first...b4 dat..... NRA on TV a6ain!!!!!!! om6....dis time is celest chon6....den yen was saboed!!! lol
so funnie....coz she 6ot lots of accessories on her...lolz...den me and a few ppl siamz..den stand behind camera...den rest went to pei yen yen...den om6..she wore a hawaiian skirt..and some flower tin6 on her head...lol..funnie...den dey all were asked to dance...den dey danced anne's dance ion de mornin..lolz.. fun fun!!
after dat we went to eat...den beck n fen6 went to eat sushie...den we all ate bk...loz..den bluff him we all 6o off le...lol...den all went youth park wanted to cut cake dere...den we saw a bunch of ppl hAvin FOc stuff..den we hid in between all of dem in a circle wif de bday cake...so paiseh...foc ppl kept cheerin...while we waited for fen6 n beck to arrive...den wen dey came...all de foc ppl san6 Bday son6 for fen6...den wen all walked out of de circle wif de cake..ask him blow...i tink he almost cried...lolz...after dat really tired le.....

Dear took same bus as me!! keke...happie!!!! but after i reach home...bath le..den i K.O le...lolz...really tired......
sniff....

=p

2005-05-21T20:02:00.000-07:00

I MISSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS YOUUUUUUUUUUUU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2005-05-19T19:14:00.000-07:00

so paiseh... lon6 time nv update my blo6 le....dun feel like typin lor....stupid key board...numbers also cannot press...muz press really hard den can come out...sianz diao lor...i seriously need an external keyboard..but no money....sniff...

my dear recently has been really treatin me really 6ood~~ i'm really happy wif dat~~

den nike show was alrite la..at least didnt for6et steps..lolz....but damn it....i 6otta wear a CORSET~~~ om6...ima6ine la...a blue sports bra, a black corset wif blue lace at de side...and my own track pants...om6.. luckily i dun need to chAn6e alot for my second item..juz pull over a top..so funnie lor...den top delin tried...look like ah ma...den yen wear look like auntie....lol...den i wear look funnie la...but did a little better den dey wear...lolz...poor sam..6otta chan6e so much..and within one min.lol..actually quite fun la..but before our item, we hAd a buffet lunch..yummy~~din care if we hAd a tummy..u noe y?????coz.......i 6ot a CORSET!!! lol...faintz..squeeze all my fats n tummy in...lolz...6ross...
den after our item we cant leave...all of us squeeze outside de small cubical toiletfor quite lon6....de 6als wif bi6 anne were in de toilet doin some 6als bitchin...lolz...fun lor...i tink de 6uys were outside slpin..lolz...
after de nike tin6, we all went to de desi6ner loun6e and tok somemore...anne treat us to lemon tean n mochA...den yen n ken didn't have a drink...de waiter damn 6ood lor...see yen n ken din hAf drink den 6ave dem de same drink as us for free~~ om6..
he say dey din hAf very ke lian..so...like dat lor...wow~~~

20 may!!!! 6uess wad day is it?? its our anniversary~~~ kekee...now waitin for him to wake up n come my house...keke..6aven him mornin call le...dunno if hE went bk to slp anot...i tink surely wan lor...pi66y~~~ keke... i like~~~~ 1yr 3 months le~~ quite hAppie....but really went true alot...sniff...

but dis mornin..some funnie person 6ave me all de crap...felt really pissed off lor... arrrrrrrrrrrrrrr........i dun wanna tok bout it..... wtf....ruin my mood lor...dun care le la... later dear come le hopefully will cheer me up...lol...

Lon6 time nv han6 out wif my frens le...miss dem worr....sorry.. have been reaally busy...and my dear jace....bz wif exams..better not disturb...muz jia you worr~~~
btw..i 6ot Accept in SIM le~~damn...diff from min......lolzz...confirm le lor..we start school also diff timin de....JOl...........muz help me worr..i dun wanna die inside~~~~lolz....~ate stress lor...scared i cant cope....still 6ot drivin, sIm projects, duntec dance...om6......i haven start school oredi so stress... die lor....
cross de brid6e wen i come to it ba....everyone start school in june...i tink i'll b bored lor...sianz...lucky still 6ot u 6uys...maybe find job to6ether...

well..i wrote alot le worr....keke....

keke

2005-05-19T18:46:00.000-07:00

A woman decided to have her portrait painted. She told the artist, "Paint me with diamond rings, a diamond necklace, emerald bracelets, a ruby broach, and gold Rolex."

"But you are not wearing any of those things," he replied.

"I know," she said. "It's in case I should die before my husband. I'm sure he will remarry right away, and I want his new wife to go crazy looking for the jewelry."

Joke lolz~

2005-05-10T07:17:00.000-07:00

After getting all of the Pope's luggage loaded into the limo (and he doesn't travel light), the driver notices that the Pope is still standing on the curb.

"Excuse me, Your Eminence," says the driver,

"Would you please take your seat so we can leave?"

"Well, to tell you the truth," says the Pope,

"They never let me drive at the Vatican, and I'd really like to drive today."

"I'm sorry but I cannot let you do that. I'd lose my job!

And what if something should happen?" protests the driver, wishing he'd never gone to work that morning.

"There might be something extra in it for you," says the Pope.

Reluctantly, the driver gets in the back as the Pope climbs in behind the wheel.

The driver quickly regrets his decision when, after exiting the airport, the Supreme Pontiff floors it, accelerating the limo to 105 mph.

"Please slow down, Your Holiness!!!" pleads the worried driver, but the Pope keeps the pedal to the metal until they hear sirens.

"Oh, dear God, I'm gonna lose my license," moans the driver.

The Pope pulls over and rolls down the window as the cop approaches, but the cop takes one look at him, goes back to his motorcycle, and gets on the radio.

"I need to talk to the Chief," he says to the dispatcher.

The Chief gets on the radio and the cop tells him that he's stopped a limo going a hundred and five.

"So bust him," said the Chief.

"I don't think we want to do that, he's really important," said the cop.

Chief exclaimed........

"All the more reason!"

"No, I mean really important," said the cop.

The Chief then asked......

"Who ya got there, the Mayor?"

Cop:"Bigger."

Chief:"Governor?"

Cop:"Bigger."

"Well," said the Chief,"Who is it?"

Cop: "I think it's God!"

Chief:"What makes you think it's God?"

Cop:"He's got the Pope for a limo driver!"

BKkkkkkkkkk From hK!!!!!

2005-05-02T05:34:00.000-07:00

Om6!!! hK was sooooooo funlor!!!!!! did so many stuff!! i LOVE RICO!!!!!!! he is A 6REat TeacheR!!! Cute too~~~ kekeke... opps.. =x really learnt alot of stuff...DID lots of shoPPIN!!!!! om6!! Bro6ht 1 lua66a6e and one slin6 ba6...den came home wif 1 lu66a6e, 2 slin6 ba6s, one shoulder ba6 and 1 laopo biscuit ba6~~lolz...om6....so auntie lor...but really la..de stuff dere really c4eap!!! bot de whole store of track pants...for my frens and myself!! keke..we alszo did some shoppin on our own~~~ as in seperate ways~~kkeke.. coz de rest really shop really slow~~~~

hAiz....some stuff hAppened dere...feelin really confused.... de first nite was okay~~ sk spent de nite wif me...but de next day...we kinda qurralled..well at least he scolded me....all i said dat i was hun6rie....and he said "but we juz Ate wad!!!!!!" freak lor...we ate like 4 hours a6o lor....cant i feel hun6rie? is it a crime? why only pick on me?? vonn say shE hun6rie he juz kid ard wif her ma..y nv scold hER? i;m Ur 6F for 6oodness sick!!!! y muz u scold me!!!!!! y cant u juz say..its okay~~i'll buy u sometin small to eat......haiz.. Den after dat we din tok to each other.... din feel like tokin to him..... damn hurt lor.....every Sin6le time he does dat to me.......Ar6hhhhh!!! i cant stand it man! and after dat...de nxt few days..MY BF!! Spend de nite in other 6als room!!! i noe notin hapened la..but its juz not rite MAn!!!
i love him i really do........but somehow de tin6s i did, to him waas juz for de sick of doin it.......Wt...... i did it coz i wanted to lor... if i didnt wanna do it..i wuld 6ive a fark bout it lor....... i wuldnt even be bot4ered... so wad eva i did was bai zhuo le lor...feel so stupid......
if i didnt love him i wuld even waste my time on dis relationship....
i feel dat wad eva he say is only WORDs...no actions at all......
maybe he is de one who is juz han6in on...juz for de sick of doin it......
haiz...... i really dunno wad to do......
we juz hAd a tok..... in de end it adds up to my fault......it was supposed to be me sayin to him....."u tink abt it" but in de end ......he asked me to tink if i wanna hAn6 on......Wt........

i really dunno le la.....usually after toks..it'll turn out better....but after dat it turns sour a6ain.....Freak..y muz it always be like dat........ i'm so afraid...
i need someone to be dere for me.......
its like de only time he needs me he'll tok to me....... but wen i need him is he eva ard??? he is always treatin other ppl better den me lor.......
even a blind man can feel it......
i freakin hAte it.....now i'm feelin totally confused.....
i dun wan our relationship to be like dat...i wan it to be filled wif care and concern and most of all....love........
i dun wanna be i6nored....
i wan stuff to be back to normal...as in 2004...b4 everytin6 chan6ed....
dats de way i like it.....i hate de way u behave infront of ppl now...feels kinda poser..attraction...totally sux lor.....
feels like u wanna impress othEr ppl..... but u dun 6ive a fark bout how i wuld feel.... lemmi remind u a6ain......
I AM YOUR 6F!!!!!!!!
pls treat me like one..........

Funnie~~

2005-05-02T05:33:00.000-07:00

1. My mother taught me TO APPRECIATE A JOB WELL DONE.
"If you're going to kill each other, do it outside. I just finished cleaning."

2. My mother taught me RELIGION.
"You better pray that will come out of the carpet."

3. My mother taught me about TIME TRAVEL.
"If you don't straighten up, I'm going to knock you into the middle of next week!"

4 My mother taught me LOGIC.
"Because I said so, that's why."

5. My mother taught me MORE LOGIC.
"If you fall out of that swing and break your neck, you're not going to the store with me."

6. My mother taught me FORESIGHT.
"Make sure you wear clean underwear, in case you're in an accident."

7. My mother taught me IRONY.
"Keep crying, and I'll give you something to cry about."

8. My mother taught me about the science of OSMOSIS.
"Shut your mouth and eat your supper."

9. My mother taught me about CONTORTIONISM.
"Will you look at that dirt on the back of your neck!"

10. My mother taught me about STAMINA.
"You'll sit there until all that spinach is gone."

11. My mother taught me about WEATHER.
"This room of yours looks as if a tornado went through it."

12. My mother taught me about HYPOCRISY.
"If I told you once, I've told you a million times. Don't exaggerate!"

13. My mother taught me the CIRCLE OF LIFE.
"I brought you into this world, and I can take you out."

14. My mother taught me about BEHAVIOR MODIFICATION.
"Stop acting like your father!"

15. My mother taught me about ENVY.
"There are millions of less fortunate children in this world who don't have wonderful parents like you do."

16. My mother taught me about ANTICIPATION.
"Just wait until we get home."

17. My mother taught me about RECEIVING.
"You are going to get it when you get home!"

18. My mother taught me MEDICAL SCIENCE.
"If you don't stop crossing your eyes, they are going to freeze that way."

19. My mother taught me ESP.
"Put your sweater on; don't you think I know when you are cold?"

20. My mother taught me HUMOR.
"When that lawn mower cuts off your toes, don't come running to me."

21. My mother taught me HOW TO BECOME AN ADULT.
"If you don't eat your vegetables, you'll never grow up."

22. My mother taught me GENETICS.
"You're just like your father."

23. My mother taught me about my ROOTS.
"Shut that door behind you. Do you think you were born in a barn?"

24. My mother taught me WISDOM.
"When you get to be my age, you'll understand."

25. And my favorite: My mother taught me about JUSTICE.
"One day you'll have kids, and I hope they turn out just like you!

Tml!!!!

2005-04-24T09:33:00.000-07:00

om6!!! tml!!! Its Tml!!!!!!! tml 6oin 4on6kon6 le!!! Weeeeee!!!!! kekee...
very lon6 nv really write my blo6 le... 4mmm
i tink coz 6ot nuttin muc4 to write abt..... de stuff i'm tinkin of...is only meant for me...kekee...dunno if s4ould be 4appie or wad..... 4mmmm......
i'm feelin kinda 4appier and sad at de same time t4ese days... keke... kinda like de confused period..... well..4opfully can 6o dere n clear my mind abit...keke...
I will miss everyone 4ere!!! sniff...... so 4appie lor....tml 6ot ppl come send us off... :D kekee
and my comp 6et to rest for a few days...it muz be really 6lad dat i'm 6oin away...lol
4opefully if i dun use it...de keys will auto fix itself...keke

JoKE to entertiain W4o eva reads dis~~~~~ :

With all the new fertility technology , a 66 year old woman was recently able to give
birth to a baby. When she was discharged from the hospital and went home, her relatives
came to visit.

"May we see the new baby?" one asked.

"Not yet," said the mother, who decided to have a little of her own fun with the
relatives. "I'll make coffee and we can visit for awhile first."

Thirty minutes had passed, and another relative asked, "May we see the new baby now?"

"No, not yet," said the mother.

After a few minutes had elapsed, they asked again, "May we see the baby now?"

"No, not yet," replied the mother.

Growing very impatient, they asked, "Well, when can we see the baby?"

"When it cries!" she told them.

"When it cries??" they demanded. "Why do we have to wait until it CRIES?"

"Because I forgot where I put it..."

21/4

2005-04-21T07:33:00.000-07:00

todae..... went s4oppin for hon6 kon6 stuff!!! wooo hoo! bot a ba6 and shades... lols..dats all.. den we went for hi6h tEA... sooooo FuLL!!!

feelin kinda down todae..... well...last nite slept only for half an hour~~~ den todae went out de whole day...my eyes felt tired...but my brain still awake..lol..

Dis mornin took drivin test.....sux....din noe how to do...but luckily 6ot other ppl's ans on it..lol..i'm so bad....
so 4appie!!! DEar help me check my results without me askin!!!!!! felt so nice!! den he calle me somemore!! and 6uEss wad?????? i PASSSs!!!!!!!!! Yay!! om6..now hope SIM accepts me......
om6...6ot interview !! den 6ot cameras!! om6!! scared lor!!! i dunno 4ow to ans de questions..scared i screw up...and stammer....and yay!!!! we 6ot de colors award!! om6!!!!!! so 4appie!!!!!!

.

2005-04-18T05:59:00.000-07:00

*Dis is juz to Let EVeryTin6 out since i 4af no 6uts to say dis.....afraid u wun feel de same...lol...coz i 4ardly 4ear it...*

4ere 6oes nuttin!!

I MISS U!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! om6!!!! YYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy........................wanna spend more time wif u!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! y u dun tok to me in msn!!!!! EVerytime waitin only.......... i wanna tok to u!!!!!!!!!! ARRRRRrrrrrrrrr!!!!!

ok...enuff for todae..lol...no one s4all see dis ms6..... *Censored**

to be continued

2005-04-17T07:58:00.000-07:00

actually...
he is very sweet iin his own way.... althou i was wron6...and we were both unhappy....he'll still try to make me happy... bot me Chocolates to cheer me up... =)

dere are other stuff too dat he does dat are really heart warmin... but.. wen thin6s become okay...he'll out of de sudden lose confindence in himself a6ain... den it leads to zi bi... which will affect me too...lol.. sadz huh....

...

2005-04-17T05:46:00.000-07:00

Todae was horrible~~ First time i saw him eva so an6ry...kicked the chair and all.. we din tok all de way... i noe...its all my fault... well from now on..my 6uess is dat he'll prob do wad eva i did...or worse...but de prob is i din do anytin6 bad..juz dun wan any misunderstandin... like a small tin6 can lead to a bi6 tin6..maybe its coz we din see each other for 6 days...kinda drifted..
my heart aches seein u sick like dat...cou6hin lots..sniffin lots too..but cant seem to do anytin bout it...

i really dunno wads 6otten to me.. somehow i will try to become like de person i love.. Which is bad in some ways... its like...since u cana do it...y cant i... well.. firstly i will always be waitinfor him to ask me out or at leaaast say he wanna see me...dats y i nv eva confirm my outins wif my frens...coz if dat one fone call comes...i'll immidiately cancle my fren..dats really bad ya...but of coz..if its oredi confirmed...den no choice la.. well... i rem deres dis phrase.. "Find sometin6 to do la!" dats wen i wanted to meet him and he doesnt seem to understand... he really doesnt understand wad i wan and wad i like....its always dis "kns la" "i am not Blah Blah" "no, u dun like it"
yeap...but seriously..wad eva i said..i meant it..

now i'm in a state of lost and loneliness...... its like u have so many ppl ard u..but still feel lonely.... and de person u wan ard is nv ard.... haiz.... dunno wad to do.....

my life stinks aniwae..*u are de only one who makes it better...but wen stuff between us 6oes bad...my life crumbles down once more*

watchin6 kate and leoplod...romantic movie....sniff...if only fairy tales do come true... well..i 6uess it only happens in movies....

Funnie

2005-04-12T19:38:00.000-07:00

The Doctor told me I should start an exercise program. Not wanting to harm this old body, I've devised the following:

Beat around the bush
Jump to conclusions
Climb the walls
Wade through the morning paper.

Drag my heels
Push my luck
Make mountains out of mole hills
Hit the nail on the head.

Bend over backwards
Jump on the band wagon
Run around in circles.

Toot my own horn
Pull out all the stops
Add fuel to the fire

Open a can of worms
Put my foot in my mouth
Start the ball rolling
Go over the edge.

Pick up the pieces.

Kneel in prayer
Bow my head in thanksgiving
Uplift my hands in praise
Hug someone and encourage them.

What a Workout!

Rest At Last.

ARRRRRR

2005-04-11T06:36:00.000-07:00

i reaLLy need to slap myself!! ARR!! yyyyyyyy...... y do i always do or t4ink stupid stuff... hAiz.... ToDae went out wif nra ppl...den keep tinkin to myself..if only he was here..kept freakin ima6inin dat he's walkin by my side, sittin nxt to me...holdin my hand...lol... *Dreamz* actually was kinda waitin for him to ask me out..or wait for me outside my Facial....lol.. or maybe juz meet me for awhile... Dunno y i Keep thinkin of him!!! ARRRRRRR!!!! seriously i keep occupyin myself also no use....but kinda sad..... i'm actually afraid.... Afraid dat he'll 6et an6ry wif me a6ain...really hurts wen he scolds me...but after a few mins..i cant juz for6et bout it... i'm 6ettin 6ood at dis...lol..dats y my memory keeps failin me nowadays...

haiz....but..noadays my mom keeps Scoldin me for alot of reasons...small and bi6 and sometimes senseless reasons....i keep quiet...until cannot take it le..den we both will scream at each other...den somemore..after i tot i seek some comfort from him..he also scolds me...dun really like de tone hE uses...i hAte it!! i dun always tell him wad hAppen...coz..sometimes wen he tries to comfort me..will in turn hAf de irritated tone...den i wuldnt wanna say more...so i rather not say anyThin...and let his playful self cheer me up...well..sometimes i smile but can be really sad inside...lol....only my close frens can tell... =x

sometimes i dunno w4ether i'm jealous or envious of his frens... dey 6et to spend lots of happy time wif him...lol...
sometimes also envious of those couples.. dey will spend every second of their time to6ether...even if its for 15mins..really like dat kinda feelin..may sound kinda posesive or wad ba...but i like it..maybe if i didn't love de person as much.i wouldnt wanna meet de person alot...lol..stupid tinkin rite? lol *slaps bunny 100000 times*

ARRRRR!!! Yyyyyyyyy!!!! Y do i love him so Much!!! ARRRR!!!!! kick me pls!!

aniwaes..YEst wen to watch viortosuo...no bad! saw Cyn Perform worr!! Very prettY!! keke..but knew she was pretty from de start...keke..muz thnk my dear jac!! Xi Shen her slp to 6o wif me...keep me accompany.. quite fun!! keke...

sianz...

2005-04-05T21:57:00.000-07:00

nowadays been quite stressful...even t4ou exams over le...mom's been scoldin n na66in... my ears pain le...
den yest juz saw de neo print... it may be not4in but.....it really meant alot... 4eart sudden felt den sudden drop...worse den ridin a roller coaster... and it really 4urt too... dunno y... wel.. maybe dis is it... first i saw dat 4e put 4is arms ard 4er...den its juz de 2 of dem... and finally...it was de day b4 valentines... dat was de worst part... well.. i really wanna believe 4im... 4e said dat 4e BUmped into 4er at PS... den i was wonderin...4ow come if bumped into 4er...den 4er frens lei? den 4ow come can take neo print? somemore PS 6ot no mac4ine...i tink... but still...ARRRR!! i noe i very xiao qi..but still! i cant stand my bf touc4in ot4er 6als..
my tots at dat time was...coz on vday need to celebrate wif 6f...so no c4oice but to celebrate it de day b4... ARRR!!!!! i'm so sorry... my brain's been fried... but really cant 4elp it...wif my pass experience...i really will 4u xi luan xian6 wan... especially after dat time 4e lied to me... i really really trusted 4im so muc4... now i still wanna trust 4im..... but s4ould i put ALL my trust in? 4aiz... seriously...i wan to....
maybe......i would.... 90%
lol...
4aiz.....

REally love dis one alot...juz 4ope de 4urtin wun take over de love....
now its been really 6reat! bummpy but 6reat!
now cant see 4im so often le..maybe once a week? once a mont4? 4e'll be bz wif final yr proj... den i maybe startin sc4ool..or workin... wun be seein eac4 ot4er le...nite time would be 6ood..but 4e may not wan to... dunno y sometimes 4e seem like 4e muz rus4 4ome b4 dinner...dis sux.... y muz life be so complicated....
4ope maybe 4e can come find me after 4is stuff... lolz.....
lalala....

sianz ar... dis 4oliday so bored.... dear jace no time for me.... zzzzzz.....
todae supposed to meet 4er 6o sc4ool to6et4er..but s4e needs to 6o icpas... sniff.. den now rottin at 4ome... keke... maple!! o2JAm!! keep me company ba!! =p

zz

2005-04-02T18:32:00.000-08:00

y muz ppl say 4urtful stuff...y muz ppl tok wif eac4 ot4er wif 4ars4 tones....4aiz... well..i muz learn to deal wif it...wen someone keeps doin stuff to u..sooner or later will 6et used to de... so i juz need to ren ba... anyway..i 6uess dey dun mean it...
=p

=p

2005-03-31T06:00:00.000-08:00

4mmm....... life's pickin up i 6uess... my sick is 6ettin better..well at least stopped sneezin so muc4...keke.. wen someone is 4appie..all de sickness will 6o away..=p

lookin forward for exams to end!! cant wait to see u 6uys a6ain... miss 4an6in6 out wif u all.. so 6lad to 4af suc4 wonderful frens...... w4o wuld stand by u wen u're dwn n c4eer u up! =p true fren are really 4ard to come by...dey will nv eva for6et u de...and wads more i dun even 4af to try so 4ard to make dem like u..juz be myself can le..and dey'll accept u no matter wad...even if we dun see eac4 ot4er..we'll always keep eac4 ot4er in mind... 4mmm.. very lon6 nv 4ear from dear jace le.. den suddenly received a 6ood luck ms6... 4appieeeee!! s4e remembered wen's my exam!! keke...

lalala...my love life..4af been really wonderful.... except for some bumps.. w4ic4 i c4oose to let loose..keke... will be 4appier! Finally can FEel de love a6ain!!! *jumps for joy* 4ope notin c4an6es for de worse a6ain...
4ate t4ose times....really 4ard to 6et by......but muz stay stron6!! i'm a stron6 bunny!! yupyup! =D smilez more!! kekeke... self an wei... lol...

Stupid marketin paper...y muz it be on a sat...ppl all finis4 exams le...only left some of us..still mu66in for our papers till de very end... i oredi in 4oliday mode le la..CAnnot!! muz studieeeeeee!! *kick my own ass* (i do stupid tin6s sometimes) (well..maybe most of de time) keke... jiaaaaa you!!!!!!! WEi le wo de jian6 lai!! yea!!!

a4 - c4ooooo

2005-03-29T00:44:00.000-08:00

om6.....
exams suxxxxxx........keep sneezin sia...somemore t4roat irritatin me....arrrrrr... cannot really tok muc4..sneeze so muc4...until cannot see my notes properly... faintzz.....
cant wait for exam over! can play until i die...until all de mosquitoe bite me i also dun care ar... lol...

Unwanted....

2005-03-27T01:28:00.000-08:00

some stuff are left unsaid...to protect me from 6ettin 4urt?..maybe if i found out myself i wuld be more 4urt?..maybe i souldn't 6o dere anymore... maybe its my fault... feel so unwelcome... well... nvm... even if i wanna see ya... i'll ren ba...

ARRRRRRRrrrr

2005-03-26T07:09:00.000-08:00

EXams SuXxxxxx
om6.......my keyboard is more spoilt den eva...numbers cant seem to be pressed anymore...well..maybe once in a aw4ile it will work..if i press dwn real 4ard... faintz..

now 6ot bitten lots of places...om6...stupid mosquitoes...dat day was 4orrible... de bites were really painful...now i keep 6ettin new wans... de mosquitoe muz be really fat and perverted..so irritin...cant seem to stop scratc4in... SomeBody STop me!!!
lol..

!#!$!$%#%#

2005-03-20T09:42:00.000-08:00

WTF WTF WTF WTF WTF WTF WTF WTF WTF WTF!!!!!!

BLOOdy hell FAko!!! WTF sia!! keep sayin cannot....den in de end...still do it somewhere else.....secretly somemore.....caused us to waste so much precious time juz to pei he ta...FREAK!! can 6o and die man!! now i hate 4im even more!! cause all my frens so much pain...and mostly....coz someone else so much freakin pain sia.... REally hurts to see dat someone so Dishearten? is dat de word? really dunno how to describe...oh well one day!!!! JUz one DAY!!! DAt someOne will out Beat u by many many TImes!!! DEn can 6o Di6 one hole and Bury le6 le.....Come la!! challAn6e!! Dun 6o for anymore Extra stuff!! Try to ChAllan6e wif ur own talents la!! come!!! i DARE u!! U sure lose wan!!!! (to de ARse hole)

Well...i will AlwaYs Zhi Chi Dat someone de!! muz 6ambette!!! dun CAre ar!!!

1yr 1 mth

2005-03-20T07:16:00.000-08:00

dis few days 4as been 6ood~~ =p

todae..i started of to be very suay..coz..wanted to watc4 movie wif jol..den we ran all over de place...findin for a t4eatre dat s4owed "Unfortunated events" wad eva de name of de s4ow is called..lol..we ran from suntec convention to suntec t4eatre carefour den to times bk store to find newspaper to c4eck out de timin..den we saw bu6is 6ot!! om6..oredi 315..and de s4ow was 330 at bu6is...den we ran all de way to de bustop, den took 133 dwn..den ran all de way to de ticketin counter..den to our dismay...dey say de s4ow no more s4owin le..damn...stupid newspaper...
den we went to walk ard..
den bumped into sk!! om6..den 4e came over to find me..=D den 4e really treated me like 4is 6f..and not some stran6er!! so 4appie lor....den wen 4e walked away..my 4eart beated so fast...den i was kinda smilin to myself..om6... lol...
den i was tinkin missin de s4ow was wort4 it...keke..
really 6ald 4e came and look for me... =D =D =D =D =D

om6

2005-03-17T05:50:00.000-08:00

om6....how can someone be in love wif someone else but still be to6ether wif another woman? de Cnn 8 show damn sad ar... de 6al was tokin to de 6uy den he fell asleep.. 6uys juz dun listen...dey totally dun understand women sia..dats y a 6al will lose interest in dat 6uy.. lol..(bk to de story) den de while de 6uy is sleepin.. de 6al juz stared at him and continuin tokin to him..tokin bout she dun wanna share her bf wif other 6al...who would wan!!! but i 6uys juz love dis kinda stuff.. wan attention ma? like de feelin of bein6 love? well.. dis wouldnt 6et anywhere....
den ar...shE said dis... "the only 3 words i hear from u is dui bu qi..but i those are not de words i wanna hear..." sniff! sad!!! y!!!! she really wanna hear "I love you" from her bf!! Y!! y cant he juz love hEr!!! Faintz....den while he's sleepin..she kept cryin and tokin to him...but he doesnt noe dat she is totally in pain... sobz!! she looks so stron6 and cheerful!! But actually crumblin inside... de 6uy is soooo stupid!! De 6al in front of her love him so much!! and he tinks of another 6al..faintz...

y ar...dis few days keep watchin sad love shows ar...

My wish...

2005-03-15T05:30:00.000-08:00

I wish......... i wish to haf someone always dere wen i need him...someone who is willin to qian jiu wo...someone who will look after me...take care of my every needs...someone who has his focus on me ONLY... i'll be willin to sacrifice for him too..serious!! lol.. Someone who sends me home...picks me up... well...not all de time..keke... but of coz if so late le...muz send me home!! keke..coz..i everythin also scared wan..hAte to run home all de time....Call me everytime he misses me..SAys he loves me and means it..hAte to be lonely..6ive me lots of supprises...Treats me better den Frens.. 6ive each other secert looks...lol..Share personal secerts dat only de 2 of us will noe..keke... si6h..sounds so sweet...Do special stuff to6ether..like watch a romantic flim..han6 ard de beach maybe a picnic? keke.. i love to 6o out at nite...so i hope de person will wan me to be Wif him as lon6 a possible and not chAse me home... stuff like dat...Feels kinda hurt not bein6 appreciated....i like it wen ppl 6row old to6ether...and dey still care for each other..cry wen de other hAlf is hurt or in pain..hold each others chin up wen either one is sad.... juz like de son6 "Love me - Collin RAy" and "hui you na me yi tian - Lin jun jie" sooo sweet.... really envy those couples who are really in love..can see dat their hearts are really connected...i miss those days wen ppl can envy us.. lol.. dis is all for now.. lol..

my fav. son6s (suits my Xin6 Qin6):
Lin Jun Jie - Bu Don6
Lin jun jie - hui you na me yi tian
Lin jun jie - Win6s
M2m - 6ive a little love

=p

BB DAy

2005-03-13T09:07:00.000-08:00

Todae felt kinda disappointed..and a little sad.... i saw 4im todae.... watc4in de bb compp..den 4e felt kinda "FRienDLy" towards me..toked to jol first...din see me... den wen i tap 4im to say arlow...4e juz looked maybe 6ave an unwillin smile... w4ile watc4in de comp...i wonder y...4e din even 4old my 4and or wad... or even touc4 me one bit....
and wen de comp ended, i told 4im i 6otta 6o off le.. 4e juz waved...wt.. 4e usually 6ive me a hu6 or a kiss 6oodbye.... i 6uess.. maybe.... 4e din wan me to be known as 4is 6f to 4is MFS frens ba.. den maybe he can 6et close to someone else wit4out leavin a bad impression on dat person....(to be considered flirtin)

i'm juz an unimportant person..... not fit to be announced to de world.. not cool enuff, not pretty enuff..not cute...not sweet... not wort4 to be sacrificed for... well... if one day i were to die.. i bet 4e wun even be sad...
juz dun feel like 4is 6f...u noe wad i mean... i'm not even treated like one.... i'm not de only one w4o sees it..ppl can see it too... i dunno wen i'll be able to last...

dis is me and my love life......DIs is for U is u eva see it

2005-03-13T07:43:00.000-08:00

Everytime I think I've had enough of you
I take you back again
Not because I need a friend
Just because I can't pretend
Like the others do
You think you're really serious
Clever and mysterious
Talking like you're dangerous
Talking like a fool

Every day there's someone else
Who wants to get with me
I'm telling you
If you know what's good for you
Treat me like you used to do
Love me like before

'Cos all I can do is watch and wonder
where the boy I know has gone
You say that you want me, well it's
Time to tell your friends where they belong

You can find it in your heart
Give a little love
Have a little faith
In the two of us
You can find it in your soul

Little boy I don't want anything to do with you
Get on your knees
I'm the one you have to please
Not the ones you want to be
I don't think you're cool

'Cos soon you can only watch and wonder
Where the girl you knew has gone

And do you really wanna lose a friend
You gotta understand or it has to end
'Cos I don't wanna wait for you anymore
CAN'T TAKE IT ANYMORE!!!!!!

tots...

2005-03-12T04:55:00.000-08:00

Wonder if any one is willin to sacrifice for me.... no one 4as eva done dat....
tml 4e will be meetin dem for dance comp.. no one told me deres a comp.. well.. i wanna 6o watc4..but.. i'm not invited...so..... better not ba.. anyway...4e may not wan dem to noe dat i'm 4is 6f... i'm totally notin to boast abt.. well.. i'll juz live my own life....4opin for more.....but try not to 6et too disappointed...

life seems to be pickin up..not too sad anymore...
msn can really do wonders...many ppl fall in love on de net... ppl 6row closer....
c4attin......4mmm...... scared... but oredi prepared.... lol...

i can 6o 4on6 kon6!!! but juz 4eard 4e no $$ to 6o...sad le... 4opin to 6o overseas wif 4im...

Tirin6 and lon6 day...

2005-03-11T06:00:00.000-08:00

Firstly... todae woke up late...i tink i 6ot less den 5 hours of slp.. for 2 days le...den almost took cab to sc4..but lucky bus came 1st.. supposed to meet my frens for some combinin6 and editin and completin6 of project.. but...dey all late..somemore dey din complete their parts..den me and shiela completed it for dem.. -_- den we 6ot no lappy somemore..dat 6al woke up late too..den s4e say s4e'll reac4 at 12..which is de time our presentations starts.. we musn't be late somemore...faintz.. minus marks worr!! our proj sux..somemore late..om6... den no lappy..den we went to lots of class rms...tried to find comp..found le..but no internet..faintz..den kept findin..den after dat..ard 12 we run to class.. but my lappy fren still on de way..om6..we reac4 class at 1205...teac4er black face...scold us...den we wait for my fren...s4e came at 1215..om6...den we faster set up lappy..den AR!!! cannot work!! om6! den we let ot4er ppl start 1st..den we kept fixin..etc...bad day...in de end we were de last to present..coz each time each 6rp finis4 we tried..still cannot...faintz...

my class ended at 2pm... waited 4 hours plus for dear to end class.... dunno y i din feel sian at all..althou i was alone de whole day..keke..i took bus wif him to his house...journey felt quite fast...faster den last time...maybe coz had lots of stuff to tok abt ba...time passes faster wen u're enjoyin it...

i've been t4inkin a6ain... i realise self protectin urself from love prevents u from havin de time of ur life! u can nv outsmart 6ettin hurt..coz in de end u'll still 6et hurt one way or another..its part n parcle of life... Cant hide from love de rest of ur life because maybe it wun work out... kekee...sounds kinda chim... well.. i let someone in my life..he took my breath away...i had de time of my life... now..at least i'll have those memories to treasure...

it takes two hands to clap~ (learnt it from jace) keke...

ARRRRRRRRRRrrr!!

2005-03-10T07:18:00.000-08:00

TOOOoooooOOOOOOOooooooT PI6666666666 PROJECT!!!!!!!!!! ARRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr!!!!! ARRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Sorry...juz need a place to scream..... relieve stress.......
i'm sooo tired....slept at 2..woke up at 5am.... de do project...den finally finis4... den my fren say 6ot lots of stuff missin...coz i din refer to my lect notes... but but but.. wanted to re do...i realised i dun 4af my lect notes!! ARRRRRR! om6....tml need to present le...now i'm stuck wif notin...dieeeeeeeeeeeeeee

panickin le...now muz try to make up some stuff le....

Steam boat!

2005-03-08T08:32:00.000-08:00

Todae ar.. lecture started early... but as usual i'm late..lol... went dere..din 4af lecture notes...so borrowed notes..den me and cyn ran to vin's to print..den came back..listen for a w4ile..den break le....we went to eat..coz i was super 4un6rie... bot fis4ball noodles... om6! $2 so little!! faintz...kickz de uncle arrr! den we we went bk to lecture..we din feel like attendin it...lol..so we sat outside and tok until lect end...keke..after dat..we also decided not to 6o for tutorial..clear leave!! keke..but..aniwae we 6o also no use..coz...we totally dun understand..so me and cyn said we studie 1st den 6o find teac4er.. den we asked kan6 yu faster come sc4ool meet us... den me and cyn went to watc4 dvd...den kan6 yu sat outside tokin to 4is fren and watc4 cyn's fone...w4ic4 was c4ar6in...

den so supprisin6! dear called!! om6!! i was s4ocked tot wad 4appen to 4im..scare me.. but den it was a casual tok.. :) dat fone call made my day!! before dat ard 245pm..me and cyn were at de atrium...i dunno y...i keep 4earin sk's ba6 sound..den i keep turnin around lookin for 4im..den i kept starin at de entrance of blk 56...coz ard dat time 4is class s4ould be endin... i felt so stupid... om6... *slaps my 4ead* i keep tellin myself not to look..but my stupid eyes juz keep lookin dat direction..cyn kept tokin to me..but i wasnt really concentratin.. =x aniwae..i walked alon6 de bazar...den saw lots of stuff..wanted to buy for 4im...i look very lon6..even de s4op uncle also reconize me le...lol..coz i keep walkin back and fort4...t4inkin if i s4ould buy anot... den i saw dis s4irt...very nice!! suits 4im alot!! i wanted to buy!! den i see de size..maybe 4e wuldnt like it..so i didnt buy in de end....

den at nite we went marina bay eat steam boat!! 6ot s4uttle bus..om6!! it was soooo fun! de uncle was speedin all de way!! felt really like some rollar coaster!! den at every turnin we kept ban6in into de sides..lol...fun fun! my fren almost puke..lol.. de 6uys did most of de cookin..i as usual...scared of splattery oil... screamed..lol.. den in de end dey cooked for us..i tried to 4elp abit..keke.. de 6uys were sooo 6entlemanly...all de 6als really felt like some princess!! kan6yu kept cookin and puttin stuff on our plates..4e even bot drinks for us...de ot4er 6uy also cooked and peeled prawns for us...lol..total 6ot ard..5 6als and 2 6uys.. i tink i 6it burnt...my 4ands are a little red still.. den after de steam boat, we wanted to rus4 dwn to cine to take neo print as a remembrance coz dey 6oin into army le..but we reaced dere it was closed le..juz like de last time...sianz...also de same t4in6...lol..6uess no fate ba...de we met armit and 4is 6al ard dere...den went to drink coffee at starbucks...next to california fitness...we sat dere and c4at.. i was too full to drink..and din wanna spend anymore money...lol..den after dat took bus 4ome....yawnz..lucky my ur6e to take cab was controlled!! yeaaaaaa !! i'm 6ood!!!

4ot and cold

2005-03-07T09:09:00.000-08:00

todae went to sk's 4ouse... :D 4ear 4im play de piano for aw4ile..den 4e went to slp le..den 4e slept from 12pm to 5pm.. at first i juz laid dere next to 4im..den i saw be4ind de door was a jacket..nv seen b4 de..den i asked new jacket? den 4e said it was JJ's....i sianz 4alf le..some4ow i dun really like de feelin of ot4er 6als stuff at my bf's 4ouse..somemore keep for so lon6...feels as t4ou dat 6al is super close to 4im..i dun even 4af a jacket at 4is 4ouse..4e wuldnt even 4old my stuff for me for so lon6...feelin damn sad le...den 4e ask me to 6o studie..like din wan me dere like dat..den i juz walked into de livin room and sat dere..den 4e slept... den i walked bk to 4is room..and lie on de floor... some4ow de tears juz kept fallin.. dunno y.. all de way til; 5...i juz dazed dere...wif de panda toy..pretendin it was 4im accompanyin me.... 4is mom came 4ome ard 3 plus..den cooked lunc4 for me...din eat..was really 4un6rie... ard 5... i woke 4im up... den at dat moment 4e said sorry...and 4u66ed me...and some4ow de sad feelin was kinda 6one...and 4eart soft a6ain...arrrrr!!! after 4e woke up..everyt4in6 was fine a6ain.. i felt all de love comin back.. sniff... lon6 time nv feel dat kinda love le... and 4e sent me to de bus stop!!! :D
wis4 i didnt 4af to leave.........dunno wen will be like dis a6ain...now 4e's 4an6in out wif de cool ppl...feel sooooooo z4i bei le.... dey can dance super well...dey are pretty...fun.....everyt4in i;'m not...
aniwae..4ope everyt4in will be fine ba......
smilez!

DAnce......

2005-03-06T04:39:00.000-08:00

last nite couldnt slp.... tummy 4urts like fark... om6.... i scrunc4ed up n tried to slp.. but too pain le..cold sweat...felt like pukin... sniff.. muz be de soup my mom let me drink.. everytime drink dat soup will 4af dis kinda pain.. wis4 4e would call me...but 4e didnt.... :( alt4ou i told 4im no need le..but still dere was dis 6lint of 4ope...6uess after tokin to 4er..4e muz be really tired ba...or maybe dey tok t4ru out de nite....maybe.....

well..todae woke up wif a sore in my tummy..didnt really feel 6ood.. met jace jol and xin..mae woke up late..lol.. den went sw...nooor was 6reat! 6reat work out! lots of floor work looked like breakin moves..lol..cool! den we took cab dwn to JB.. soooo many ppl! den dey were oredi dancin belly dancin class..lol..funnie...
todae was all de free classes.. total i went for 2 4ip 4op classes, jazz, pilates, and finally JAzz Ballet!! wooooooot! OM6!!!!! i 6ot a kiss todae!!!!!!! i blus4ed....kekeke.... a little s4ocked t4ou... :p

o4 well..after class...took cab to my 6ranny's keke... yup ate nice ice cream! me and my cousin rocks!! keke...

4aiz...din 4ear from 4im todae.... sad case... muz be really enjoyin 4im self wif MFS ppl ba... ima6ine...... Loads of 6als and 1 6uy....lol... 4e muz be admirin dem like siao ba,.... dey are pretty...kinda... in a way... and dey can really dance.... i'm like shit compared to dem....

2005-03-05T08:19:00.000-08:00

Lalalala...... dis mornin went to sk's 4ouse...finally decided to innitiate a6ain.. but temp! de feelin of finally spendin quality time to6et4er was 6reat! missed 4im playin de piano! keke..ate lunc4 at 4is place... den needed to 6o off for my dental appointment..sniff.. too bad cant stay lon6er.. aniwae.... 6lad 4e came alon6 wif me! feels so close... all de dentist ppl all asked me if 4e was my bf...lol... of coz la! keke.. proud of it! bleaaaaa! after dat i need to 6o suntec find jace and 6o 6era's bday party! 4e walked me to my bus stop at far east...den wen my bus came.. 4e said 4e take wif me... :D den we waited for 4is bus to come at suntec... we toked... found out wad was 4appenin in 4is life...was 6lad we 4ad dat tok.... maybe.. i wun let de jealously kill me.. MAYBE!! lol... anyway...4ad a 6reat time wif 4im todae!
den i met jace dey all at mellium walk..den saw DAn!! lon6 time no see 4im le...keke..den i saw alvin..4e waved at me wif de sad face..lol... den i tot of my dearest jace..lol... wen we arrived at 6era's bday...felt as t4ou i was walkin down a cat walk...so many sittin at de side.. den all stare quietly at u.. lol..kinda like in an awkward situation.. jace, jol and me..walked to one side wrote de bday card..den presented it to 4er..ekeke..de food was 6reat! but de drink..lol... SOUR ar!!!
after 4er bday..wait for 4er to clean up..den we went KSter at c4ina town... vonne was oredi dere..lol..at first i din wanna 6o...but juz accompany dem dere..den wen we reac4ed dere i blur blur step into de room..den dey counted our 4eads le..den stay lor..cannot 4elp it la...my 1st time in KTV....lol...sua ku sia..... om6!! James and alle6ra really can sin6 damn well sia!! can melt sia... den 4eard de son6..."Wo men de ai" sniff! reminds me of de son6 4e used to play on de piano..keke..

sadz..dunno if its sad or wad... but..its juz a sinkin6 feelin... sk juz said 4e 6onna slp soon..den i asked if 4e callin me..den 4e said..4is fren callin 4im.. 6uessed a 6al le...but its notin ba...s4e's sad...needs comfort... 6uess its notin.. :) i'll wait for 4is call later ba! tml 4e needs to wake up early for dance class wif mFS ppl.. so i 6uess i'll be 6oin SW and JB ba... Muz tnkz sam for 4er card! or else i cant 6o le.. no $$... Tnks SAm bunny!

Stufff

2005-03-04T05:42:00.000-08:00

6uess WAd!!! i was early for class for once!! keke... i was de second person to arrive..alt4ou i was 15mins late...keke..all my frens clear leave.. Went SIM to eat for a c4an6e.. den made my fren rus4 4er food...coz...i wanted to 6o LT faster..keke..4opefully can bump into u noe w4o..i reac4ed 10 mins b4...my frens wen in le..i sat out dere until 3...den went in put ba6..den came bk out..keke.. feel damn stupid... den went bk in..sat dere...couldnt 4elp it le...ms6 4im..ask if 4e wanted to 6o 4ome to6et4er...keke...but some 4ow.... de feelin was kinda stran6e... felt hot yet cold....cold as in wen 4e saw me...i didnt feel de 4appiness..but felt den sian-ness instead...maybe 4e was tired ba..but felt 6reat wen 4e 4eld my 4and... come to tink of it...we almost nv 4eld 4ands in sc4ool..since last yr...b4 june.. on de bus..stepped on some 6uy's foot..or was it a 6al's foot..duno la..but kanna scolded my sk..for tokin too loud..opps!
well..on de bus 4e slept 3/4 of de way... dunno y 4e looks so peaceful and cute wen 4e sleeps...i 6uess maybe dats de only time w4ere i 6et to stare at 4im and will not 6et scolded """WAD?" de "its so irritatin dat u're starin at me tone"
o well... now dun 6et too 4urt wen 4e uses de 4ars4 tones on me le.. 4opefully one day i'll 6et numb to it too... :)

stupid mapple!!!! cant play!!! sooo la66y!! arrrrrrrrrr!!! now 6ot nuttin to do... cant juz sit 4ere and c4at all day...fin6er will numb de... lucky 6ot anot4er patc4...4opefully it'll be better..den can play! yippie! dunno y sk's cousin suddenly ms6 me..keke...not too bored...

DEn de toot pi6 kan6 yu!! mms me!! om6! it was de w4ite noise poster!!! om6!! scared de tootz out of me!! -_-"

my feelins everyday feels like i'm runnin away... tryin very 4ard not to bot4er bout certain stuff...alt4ou i'm really affected by dem... wis4 i dun 4ave to run away...wis4 everyt4in wuld 6o normal..y cant ppl juz love like deres no tml? y cant ppl juz like someone and dat person juz like dem back? y muz de world be so complicated? 6uess so it wuldnt be a borin world huh?

at one time u really love someone...u try so 4ard to 6et some love back..sometimes u do..but sometimes u dun...den one day..u'll be very tired..den u'll start to tink..y did u love dat person in de 1st place? once de moment of love for 4im has passed...and u start to feel de love from dat person...but by de time..its too late...u dun love 4im as muc4 anymore...time.... time is all dat matters...if u catc4 eac4 ot4er at de rite time...dats 6reat! if not....both of u will suffer....

@---->-----

2005-03-03T06:07:00.000-08:00

Yay!! Firstly..finally 6otta dance le!! sooooo lon6 nv dance le...de c4ero was nice! =p but after class...slack super lon6..wanted to 6o 4ome le coz felt kinda breat4less..but..decided to stay in de end..at least will 6et some time wif 4im..keke.. muz tkx my dearest jace le...willin to pei me sit outside... =p
At de end of de day..i din re6ret stayin back..keke.. coz...i 4eard de p4rase i've been waitin for, for very very lon6 le!! 4e SAid 4e loves me!! sniff... it came as a s4ock t4ou... 4eart kinda skipped a beat.. lol..om6..6oin crazy le...

todae...Finally 6ot to watc4 my s4ow "CLoser"!! yes!! dra6 sk watc4 wif me...lol.. poor 6uy..looked so tired...well dun wanna watc4 dis s4ow wif ot4er ppl.. de s4ow was kinda dra66y...but it really reflects reality... sad to say... some4ow it feels a little like stuff 4appenin around me... de s4ow was quite funnie at certain parts... but...deres dis part w4ere it 6ot quite upsettin6.... brou6ht some tears to my eyes...lucky he din see it..keke...

well..after de s4ow i took train to 4is 4ouse...den i took a bus...was supposed to 6o 4ome... but decided to 6o J8 instead...reac4ed 4ome ard 8pm... i did some s4oppin...waited for de bus super lon6...lucky my fren was smsin me all de way from dere to 4ome...not too bored...

came 4ome played maple...died 2 times today...sianz... 10% lei... zzzzz.... later muz do my project le...sianz...

Finally need to say dis...
Toot pi6 sam!! almost made me cry...sniff!....made me t4in6 of my memories... lucky i turned away quickly..but need to t4ank 4im too.... made me remember 4ow muc4 i still love 4im....
(for6ot to mention dis in my previous entries)

TuEs!

2005-03-01T10:06:00.000-08:00

Todae after sc4ool met kan6 yu.. den we went off to watc4 s4irleen's ru6by matc4...woot! waited for 4er for until 8pm worr...was supposed to meet de rest at town ard 7pm..lol...jian lin6 was dere at 630..om6...den s4e say kanyu muz treat 4er le...lol..in de end we took cab dwn..kan6yu paid...and den we went coffee club to eat...also kan6 yu treat! wow! i ate pasta! and mud pie! and tiramisu! wow! sooooo yummy!! den we walked round...wanted to take neo print.. den all de s4ops were closed le...sobz..lol.. aniwae...after dat we went 4ome.. i took same bus as kan6 yu...den rest took 171...den bumped into jol, mae and eu6ene on de bus...wow..so late le still can bump into dem..dey juz finis4ed JB.. wen i 6ot 4ome...my fren called me..om6... found out more stuff bout my ex...om6.... 4e is soooooo sick..... a leopard nv c4an6es its spots....lol...

later dat nite..saw sk online...den suddenly off line le...den i waited for 4is call..usuallly 4e wuld call me every nite de...oredi 2 nites din call me le..sniff.. den i called 4im...den ask 4im y 4e din call me...4e oredi slept..usually 4e wuld call me b4 4e slps de...sniff.. dunno le la..driftin6 furt4er and furt4er le.... den i juz said...u 6o slp ba..dun wanna tok to u le...den 4e really 6o slp..... -_-?"

The Dancin World of Bunny!

:)

you're there for me

Would You?

bunny

Dreams..

Poem!

For You i will

Cable Skiing!!!

Xmas!

BLoGg

=)

august

scdule

2 yr 2 mths

=(

Grossed out

smilez

All i wan...

:...

/Maple

Poetic mood

=p

Meaning ful bus ride

A Walk to Remember

hmm

:)

Clear blue sky.......

:)

lalala

zzzz

dance...

zzzz

zzzz

bad day

Corrinne MAy

Yawn

hmmmm

hihi

hmm

song

sad life

hmm..i dunno wad to say or feel

haa

long hetic day

Be strong!!!!

Haiz...

RTHK prac

boreeddddddd

open arms...

sux...its happin again... tired le....

zzzz

fen6 bday..

=p

keke

Joke~~ lolz~~~

BKkkkkkkkkk From hK!!!!!

Funnie~~

Tml!!!!

21/4

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to be continued

...

Funnie

ARRRRRR

sianz...

zz

=p

a4 - c4ooooo

Unwanted....

ARRRRRRRrrrr

!#!$!$%#%#

1yr 1 mth

om6

My wish...

BB DAy

dis is me and my love life......DIs is for U is u eva see it

tots...

Tirin6 and lon6 day...

ARRRRRRRRRRrrr!!

Joke lolz~