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den eveyone at de table looked!! keke..den 4im waved ello at cyn but not me!! but isaw 4im look at me for 1sec...den i walked off for class le....sianz...keke
after class i was 4opin 4e wuld wait for me...but 4e din ms6 me...so i decided to 6o off wif cyn...den we walked ard sc4ool..i decided to walk pass de music room 4opin sk wuld be dere playin piano..keke..but nope! 4e wasnt dere...den i took bus wif 4er to meet 4er bf...wen i juz 6ot on de bus...4e called!! om6! i really wanted to fly dwn de bus to meet 4im..4e asked me w4ere was i..den i said on de bus le...den 4e said nvm...sniff..
den i did a stupid t4in6...keke..after sendin cyn to suntec..i took 133...stopped at sk's 4ouse...4opin to watc4 4im play bball..den 6o 4ome...lol..but too bad 4e wasnt dere..den i ms6ed 4im..den 4e called me..asked me to 6o find 4im..4e said 4e was wif 4is fren sittin at de void deck..4mmm..wonder w4o...keke...
den after we met..4e walked me to de bus stop...de friendly kinda feelin..but at de bus stop 4e juz 4u66ed me aw4ile..sniff!! wanted to cry le... din noe i missed 4im so muc4...i tried not to s4ow it..keke.. oredi din see 4im for 4 days le... decided not to be de one to call 4im out anymore..so waitin for 4im... den my bus came i waved 6ood bye..den 6ot on...den 4e followed be4ind..i sat dwn den i noe!! lol..s4ockin! keke...super 4appie..4e said 4e'll take bus wif me to de next stop.. keke...too bad it wasnt 4ome...keke...
i s4all continue to wait.......wonder if i dun do be innitiative..will 4e be?
den sat for 15mins...den break le...den me and cyn walked to canteen 4 we ate dere... tok bout 4er troubles....s4e keeps smilin..but inside can tell its really painful...den we went bk and sat out side de lt..lolz..din 6o bk for lesson..feel soooo bad...keke...
after sc4ool..took 61 to bu6is...lon6 journey sia... cyn waited for bus wif me...yeap! made 4er do it..keke...evil bunny.. anyway.. de bus journey was soo lon6 dat i t4ink my butt 6ot cramp.. took lots of pics on de bus..too bored le..lol.. met jace...den s4e treated me dinner...den we walked to litle india to buy coconut oil..1st time dere worr...keke..feels so forei6n..but nice experience..den after dat we walked back to bu6is..den walked to city link ate crepes ice cream dere..s4e treat a6ain..keke..really feel like 4er 6f...so xin fu...keke den after dat we walked to esplanade...den tok tok...told 4er t4e "4ide and seek" story line...keke den we walked to milliena walk to meet 4X...den after dat s4e lon6 ban6 me 4ome by cab..seriously feels like a date...keke.. nice feelin...
reac4ed so early todaae...cooked rice...pepared dinner..waited for mom to come 4ome...juz ate dinner...sooooo full!! *burp* ate noodles and rice.... *tummy bi6 le*
feel so fat...lol...4ope wed faster come..den can dance!!!
om6 so many 4unks dere!! keke wen we reac4ed dere, we walked round cause way pt...every sin6le lvl..yeaps! den finally went to de fair!! de ride i wanted to sit was 6 tokens!! arrrrr.....no money!! 2.50 for 1 token...ds 2 of us..yup..so cannot...sadz....so i decided on anot4er ride!! air force somet4in...lol..also quite cool! 3 tokens eac4 only! yeaa... kinda excited wen we 6ot on...den wen it started...lol...sk was kinda scared..lol..i tot 4e wuldn't de...keke... was really fun!! wis4ed it didnt 4af to stop! it swan6 us really really 4i64!! terribly fun lor!! too bad...no more $$ to sit a6ain...after we 6ot down..sk said 4e felt like pukin..poor t4in.. i tink de ride i wanted to sit innitially was more excited den dis...lucky we din sit dat..or else 4e really will puke..
after everyt4in we took a train 4ome...i took to bis4an...den 4is bus came 1st..so 4e 6ot on..den i waited 20mins for my bus..w4ile waitin...dis 6rp on small boys kept lookin my direction..wanted to kick t4eir ass... den dis tall black 6uy..look like a basketballer.. 4e walked pass me dat time...4e bend down to make sure i see 4is face den 4e smiled at me....om6...so scary!!
i also sms sk dis.. ask 4im if 4e could make my wis4 come true...asked 4im not to 6o out wif anymore 6als..as in one on one..den 4e din reply....den i ms6 4im a6ain.. "is dat a no?" no reply a6ain....suan le..... den at nite 4e called me den i tink 4e wanted to pretend 4e din see de ms6 ba...den i asked 4im a6ain...wad was 4is ans...den 4e din wanna do it...coz...4e like 6oin out wif 4is frens...so i told 4im wad i was feelin...asked 4im y did 4e c4ose to 6o out wif 4er and not me..... 4e juz said 4e juz felt like it...den after dat i told 4im dat i asked 4im 1st..den 4e kept sayin i did not.. !@#@#... i told 4im a6ain..yes i did..i kept askin if 4e was free...and 4e juz kept sayin dunno..until sat itself..i asked 4im a6ain..and 4e said dat 6al juz asked 4im out..and 4e immediately a6ree...freak...am i so not impt? arrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr.........den after dat 4e totally kept quiet...as usual... fine...so i told 4im...if u wanna 6o out like dat...6o a4ead...dun blame me for any t4in dat 4appens next...told 4im dat i wuld start 6oin out wif my 6uy frens... and force myself not to like 4im so muc4 anymore...i even told 4im dat from now on..i 6onna puy 4im not as my 1st piority le.. i tink 4e doesnt even care....wtf... maybe 4e doenst even treasure out relations4ip ba... 6ive me some time...maybe i'll for6et 4im...and 4e doesnt even noe it......
anyway..lucky i 4ad my fren dere...we 4ad our own fun...4e watc4ed 4ide n seek wif me coz sk watc4ed it wif 4is frens le....den after dat..we walked ard...den kept takin fotos!! so cool! c4in6 6ay!! de ar...i took lots of fotos wif de performers... dey asked me to join dem in de foto de. den i saw alvin, dean and ivan..we took fotos too..keke...i was quiet 4i64 at dat moment...wen de parade started..i couldnt see anyti4in6...den kept jumpin and peepin at ppl's view cam..lol..after dat... i felt kinda sick... saw stars...vision 6one... den 4ad cold sweat... almost fainted..lucky my fren lead me to de toilet..den i was4ed my face..den after dat i felt better...but 6ot a little bit of 4ead ac4e...den we faster took a train 4ome...din wanna worry 4im..but 4e was quiet kind la..4elp me carry my ba6...wis4ed sk was de one doin all t4ose...
freak........juz asked sk out...den 4e said he's meetin 4is fren..den i ask w4o...den 4e said sec. fren...den after i asked de name...den found out it was 4is Ex ex 6f.... sianz 4alf le.....actually oredi asked 4im out lon6 a6o..den now..i 6uess 4e c4oose to 6o out wif 4er rat4er den wif me.....i 4ate my life..... i'm like some spare tire......u wan me den u come look for me..6ot someone to 4an6 out wif u den dun wan me....wtf........ always like dat......4eart break a6ain........
Vday was 6reat..well..at least 4e spend it wif me....for a few 4ours.......den but it was super stupid lor..4ad to 6o back to sc4ool for dance..sianz...we only 6ot time to watc4 a movie and 4af pasta mania for lunc4.....wtF...den 6otta rus4 bk to sc4ool....freak..den we were like de 1st to arrive...den waited so damn lon6....den anne arrived...after dat 6ot new positions and new steps..den in de end..someone couldnt catc4 de steps...so we decided not to perform le....wTf...waste my bloody time....i could 4af my romantic nite...lol...jk...wen we were abt to 6o 4ome...we qurraled...sobz... :( but after dat it was kinda resolved...but felt kinda cold... but..i 6uess i'm not too sad anymore....or s4ould i say bort4ered....i tink de feelin is 6ettin numb le..dis s4ouldnt be de way....if dis coldness continues..i tink my love will fade...y does dis always 4appen..if love fades in a relations4ip..its bad.. anyway...now keep 6oin out wif jace and jol...y cant sk ask me out...y cant 4e be more zi don6...a man s4ould always look after 4is 6al... dun let anyone snatc4 4er away...rite? sniff... 4e dun even ms6 me or replys me anymore...but i 6uess 4e does reply everyone else but me...or ask ot4er ppl out but me.....i 6uess i'm 4is sixt4 piority in 4is life.....sadz rite?
later in de evenin, my bro, mom and me took a cab to de club for our reunion dinner.. dey hAd lion dance!! so cool! my mom fed de lions an6 pao...lol..den de lion rubbed its face on her, showin its affection...keke..so cute! after dat i wanted to take foto of de lions..but den ar..dey kept movin...but after a while de lions somehow knew i wanted to take pic..den it posed in front of me very lon6...den i took...keke...kinda scary thou..especially wen it blinked at me...lol
after dinner my bro took me for a movie....so cool worr...dunno y 4e suddenly asked me for a movie..keke..aniwae 4e's 6f was dere too! she 6aven me lots of stuff..wow! we watchEd "Constantine"! so scary!! i kept coverin my eyes...wishin dear was dere... i was so scared dat i spilled de whole box of pop corn on de floor... =x my bro n his 6f saw how scared i was..so dey let me hold pi6let for company...i really felt more secured! keke..used pi6let to cover my eyes..keke.. after de show we took a cab home....yawnz...tml muz wake up early for visitin6! but cannot slp so soon...New yr muz stay up really really late de! keke..
supposed to meet him at 12..but.wen i was at de bus stop..i realised my mom had my Bus card!! arrrrrr........sianz le..so i searched for coins...arrr! no coins!! so i decided to take a cab..abt 3 busses pass me by le..by rite i could have reached on time...damn...no cab!! i kept walkin..panickin le...lol...den decided to call a cab...but half way thru bookin, a cab came! tnk 6od!! it was almost 1215 le...and de s4ow starts at 12.20..om6...dear was dere at 12pm..die... i was so late...lucky i reac4ed dere ard 12 20 plus...i saw dear...den i saw dat 4e oredi bot tickets..i feel so bad....we watc4ed "Findin neverLand" wow...nice.... ekekereally enjoy watc4in shows wif him! :) after dat went suntec to walk ard...den i bot a reebok top...keke..niceeee!! keke but cannot wear for new yr...lol..black!! my mom will sure scold de...after dat we took bus to 4is 4ouse...den he ask me 6o home le... sianz...tot can stay lon6er..soo early worr...zzz... tot usually ppl will wanna spend more time to6ether de...but..6uess he really wanted to play bball ba... i wanted to watch...but...he also dunn let me... zzz... in de end i 6o J8 walk walk myself...so lonely......
now my moom is askin me to call sk out to find my clothEs....but i dare not call him..lol...later he find me irritatin...keke... called jace..but she also bz... decided not to 6o le....sianz...
maple also cannot play...stupid manual patch.....dunno wad corrupted....den i reinstall...damn...also cannot....now d/l de new EXE file......so sian arrrrrrrrr.... dunno how many hours sia.....zzzzzz......
For you to bring a fairytale my way
Believing in a fantasy without meaning
It's not okay, I don't feel safe..
Left broken empty in despair
Want to breathe, can't find air
Thought you were sent from up above
But you and me never had love
So much more I have to say
Help me find a way
And I wonder if you know
How it really feels
To be left outside alone
When it's cold out here
Well maybe you should know
Just how it feels
To be left outside alone...
Why do you play me like a game?
Always someone else to blame
Careless, helpless little man
Someday you might understand
There's not much more to say
But I hope you find a way....
so irritatin!! ppl keep askin me if i'm free o 14 feb anot...zzz... of coz not la!!! de person i wanna 6o out wif is soooooooo obvious lor... lol...opps... *blus4* well...aniwae..time for maple!! dear not 4ome yet...wonder wads 4e doin..keke... *ponders*
aniwaee..i played maple de w4ole day...den after dat yen yen ms6 ask if 6oin alle6ra's bday anot...i cant 6o coz 6ot 6randpa bday!! den i ms6 sopmeone...but dey w4ole day no reply de...muz be really bz worr...wanna c4at aw4ile also cannot ba...
aniwae...at nite went to pick 6rand parents for dinner...de place was soo crowded! dunno y ppl look at me funnie funnie de...den 3 a4 ben6s walk pass me dat time keep starin like noe me like dat...abit scary..den i faster walk away... dinner was super slow arrr......i seriously almost dozed off..cant really keep my eyes open...so tired lor...dunno y also...den after dinner wait for my dad's car to come pick us up also very lon6...zzz....stand dere 1/2 an 4our ar....too many cars le ba...den i slept in de car...fetc4 6ranny 4ome...den after deliver food to aunt's 4ouse...coz s4e for6ot to take...by de time i reac4 4ome ar... 11 plus le...
den i maple aw4ile...saw dear in maple! keke...den now...dunno wad 4e doin ba...watc4in movie? playin ps2? coz no reply in msn de...so muz be la...keke... i wanna slp le...cannot ta4an le...
yawnz....
AFter meetin dem..went to WQ 4ouse...bou64t ma66ie mee 6o dere eat...we slacked at 4er 4ouse waited for most of de ppl to arrive den left for de airport!! we stepped out le den rained!! ARRrrr!!! 6ot kinda wet...den was soo cold!! we waited at de bustop for very lon6 tryin to fla6 cab... waited so lon6 le..still no cab...WQ 6ot kinda worried..keke..so we called a cab!! den after a w4ile a cab passed by...i waved frantically at it....keke..den it made a U-turn....WQ, alle6ra, vonne n s4arlene 6ot on first...den left me, sam, sk and small pan6!
we wait damn lon6 for de cab sia...and it was de on-call cab! den later it came...but de uncle saw us..den kept pointin at de on- call si6n..om6...den we were tryin to saay we were de ones w4o made de call..stupid uncle....lol...wen we were abt to 6ive up..and meet dem in twn instead, a cab came..keke..and off to de airport we went!! we ate bur6er kin6 dere..took some pics..and sent WQ off...kept wavin..so funnie...den after dat wen took train to town...b4 dat were actually sittin on de floor decidin w4et4er to send YX off anot..lol...in de end nv...coz of time constraint and diff sc4edule..keke...weird also la..
went twn..we 6ot seperated on de train...one 6rp went PS anot4er went Orc4ard... i went orc4ard wif sk dey all...coz dey needed to 6o for job interview at foreva 21...dunno de results t4ou...after dat we went PS to find de rest of dem...dey were at KFC...den after dat decided on BK instead! (not a6ain!!) keke...but i din eat...coz kinda lost my appetite...coz..somet4in was not rite...felt like somet4in was 4idden from me...den after i sat dwn...4e said 4e was not eatin..and 4e went off to walk ard...(maybe meet some fren?) dunno la...arrrr....i'm 6oin crazy... dun tink le.. =p so 4appie i 6ot my frens ard....dey are really dere to keep me warm and keep me smilin!! ....alt4ou64 can sense dey 6ot xin shi...
well..de day ended on quite a 6ood note!! vonne dey all went to watc4 movie.. i went 4ome...coz..de s4ow was too late!! somemore 6host show...lol...scared...also 6ot no one to send me home.. oh well....i was happie!! he walked me to de MRT station!! om6!! keke.... :D and wen he held my hand...i tink my heart skipped a beat...lol... hard to believe rite? but true...dunno wen i can watch movie wif him a6ain..its been some time....sadz...but true....maybe he rather watch wif frens ba... so no need to pay for me..lolz.. i wanna watch "Shall we dance" and "Findin NeverLand"!! actually wanted to watch "CLoSer" de...but i dare not kai kou...scared of bein6 rejected..keke..
Ps...I like Those times we have to6ether..all 3 of us!!! fun fun! *Best Frens 4Eva*
De test sux! hopefully can pass ba....kekee..after sch went town...bou6ht some stuff!! kekee.... den after dat...wanted to meet someone...den.....did de most stupid thin6 any 6al can do... sooooo paiseh!!! sniff.....wanna di6 hole and burry my head le......kekee i had fun!! wish could do dat more often.....love to see 4im smile!! kekeke...... too bad...couldnt stay lon6er..
hmm......tml everyone 6onna send WQ off.....dunno if i s4ould 6o anot...
scared will it be de same as usual? he runs off playin wif someone else...den i juz stand in one corner envyin those ppl.... kinda hurts.... will he hold my hand? Will he tok to me? still tinkin... will de someone else be there? maybe if i dun 6o he'll have more fun... =p
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are the hardest to keep
they fly away when
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travel with fate through
the pathways of life
remember that Person
that had once touched Your heart.....
kinda find it hard to believe certain stuff le...bball? hmmm....6uess its true...but..is dere somethin else i dunno? is someone dere to watch? i 6uess...trust is still impt.... once breached deres no 6oin back....a question keeps poppin up in my mind.... Am i really impt? how come somethin6 else 6ets picked rather den me?
Time will tell.....Dats wad i've been 6ettin from ppl....lolz....i 6uess its true....
I shall smile all de way ba!! =p
cant concentrate!! arrrrrrrrrrrrr!!! damn..... so i ms6 someone to studie wif me... den waited n waited...in de mean time tried to studie more..but...cant....lolz.... om6..
ard 4 plus... tot 6ot ppl to studie wif me le! woot! but realized 4e wanted to walk 1 round den 6o 4ome le...sianz....de way 4e said it felt like 4e wanted to meet juz to do me a favour of meetin me... zzzzzz.... sounds c4im rite? well i went 4ome AloNe.......
yawnz...muz try to studie a6ain.....
4opefully i can studie....tml 6ot marketin paper!! arrrrrrrrr!!! sianz......