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Monday, May 30, 2005Y
9:19 AM
so tired.... todae ran 1 break 2 rounds ard de track...no staminar sia.... den i slack since 1 plus till 6 plus..den started training...
my back hurted after dancing for awhile...but muz ren!!!! training more impt!! i sux at dancin sia...see everyone ard me...all pro de.. muz jia you!! my toe hurts... and worst of all my right soulder has been hurting for 1 week le.... sniff...gotde sprain feeling...hopefully its not baa... cannot carry my bag on de shoulders...wish got someone carry for me...haha.... sianz...i think i'm good at Ren-ing le...hahahaha...... muz bear all de pain n dance!!!!!!!!!! den todaae headache too...muz be de aircon...head felt bloody...cant really concentrate....haha... damn......den after dance...went home alone...walk de dark path... kinda scary...i tot de leaf was a dead raat...den my house dwnstairs got a few blacks sittin dere partyin...drinkin...scary...all big sized de...
tired le.....play abit maple den slp ba.... tml at home slackin again...... sobz....

Sunday, May 29, 2005Y
8:10 PM
yawns.......so boring....everyones in school...i wanna dance.!!! dunno if i should get a job or to slack....coz..school reopening soon..i might as well slack n relax first...schoool reopen le..no more chance.... sniff...
i dread goin to school...
dunno if got time for suntec anot...but i will definately make time for it de... but i think i'll b dead tired...haha...oh well.. at least sim is juz nxt to school!! haha... juz downloaded zoo tycoon....my zoo looks promising!! hahaha... anyone can teach me how to put pics into my blog????? been wanting to do dat...but dunno how.... i oreedi got a photo bucket thingy le...next..dunno wad to do...i sux at dis...
madagascar squrrial soooooo cute!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
haha

Thursday, May 26, 2005Y
7:34 AM
Lying beside you, here in the dark
Feeling your heart beat with mine
Softly you whisper, you're so sincere
How could our love be so blind
We sailed on together
We drifted apart
And here you are by my side


So now I come to you, with open arms
Nothing to hide, believe what I say
So here I am with open arms
Hoping you'll see what your love means to me

Living without you, living alone
This empty house seems so cold
Wanting to hold you, wanting you near
How much I wanted you home

Will U Come back?
Will u turn my night into day?
Will u stay??
I need u to stay....

Wednesday, May 25, 2005Y
8:25 PM
Haiz...Feel super depressed... firstly... supposed to meet areil for madagascar todae..den watch wif sk n ken...den dey no money watch so postpone to next week... den i tot well...at least i get to meet sk...was lookin forward to todae...so can spend time wif him..but den again.. i asked him juz to confirm...if we were still meeting...was also supposed to bring to de dentist...den he said....maybe he goin wif his fren..coz he's fren say go wif him...and fren got nothing to do...den i sian diao...den i juz say u go wif him...i asked u first lor...and i was supposed to go wif ariel to buy stick and i cancled her instead juz so dat i can meet him...den he tells me dis... wtf... i feel like some spare tyre...ur fren not free den meet me...fren free den rather meet fren...haiz.... Den somemore de movie has been postpone to next week..den he tells me dat he gotta do project...no need watch le..i think i also wun get to see him at all le...besides wed..during DANCE.. and its not spendin time...its juz lookin at him only...*crys* den last nite we tok on de fone.... i really think he very insensetive...well at least only towards me...other ppl he is so willing to be dere for dem...massasge for dem...take care of dem so well... haiz...i dunno la.... last nite couldnt sleep...tears juz kept flowin... hate to do dat...arGh!!!! i feel damn stupid...always doin dis kinda dumb stuff... always putting him as my first piority... damn it... *slaps myself* WAke up gal!!!

*All words and no Actions*

Wo hen lei le...........

*does it eva occer dat i may need u? and dat u're mostly not dere?
i guess i'm not needed anymore...you got wad u wanted....
guess u're happier now.... :)

i juz wish he could show more concern...or at least ask me..."hows ur toe? or hows ur back? or maybe help me massage....or carry my bag...or wad eva..
haha...dreamin only.....
it only happens to other ppl...will nv eva happen to mede...hahahahhahahahah.....

Monday, May 23, 2005Y
9:53 AM
todae got RTHK dance...but b4 dat kinda got a little sad...sk was back to de fierce tone thing again..wen i asked him to buy food for me...sniff..dunno y he is so against me eating...din have lunch ma...and was hungry ma..sniff...dunno la...
aniwaes...dunno y feelin kinda sad lately..mybe coz..everyone's goin bk to school le...den dear also no time for me le..juz miss him lor...
but sometimes i think he doesnt miss me anymore.. wen i say 'i miss u' i dun even hear a reply...saded...but its alrite...i juz gotta live wif it.. keke
nw i'm officilly broke..juz bot my new ez link card n keyboard..really broke le..
tired....
i think i go find a job tml...newspaper!!

Saturday, May 21, 2005Y
8:04 PM
om6 xuanfen6 bday so fun lor.......but first...b4 dat..... NRA on TV a6ain!!!!!!! om6....dis time is celest chon6....den yen was saboed!!! lol
so funnie....coz she 6ot lots of accessories on her...lolz...den me and a few ppl siamz..den stand behind camera...den rest went to pei yen yen...den om6..she wore a hawaiian skirt..and some flower tin6 on her head...lol..funnie...den dey all were asked to dance...den dey danced anne's dance ion de mornin..lolz.. fun fun!!
after dat we went to eat...den beck n fen6 went to eat sushie...den we all ate bk...loz..den bluff him we all 6o off le...lol...den all went youth park wanted to cut cake dere...den we saw a bunch of ppl hAvin FOc stuff..den we hid in between all of dem in a circle wif de bday cake...so paiseh...foc ppl kept cheerin...while we waited for fen6 n beck to arrive...den wen dey came...all de foc ppl san6 Bday son6 for fen6...den wen all walked out of de circle wif de cake..ask him blow...i tink he almost cried...lolz...after dat really tired le.....

Dear took same bus as me!! keke...happie!!!! but after i reach home...bath le..den i K.O le...lolz...really tired......
sniff....

8:02 PM
I MISSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS YOUUUUUUUUUUUU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Thursday, May 19, 2005Y
7:14 PM
so paiseh... lon6 time nv update my blo6 le....dun feel like typin lor....stupid key board...numbers also cannot press...muz press really hard den can come out...sianz diao lor...i seriously need an external keyboard..but no money....sniff...

my dear recently has been really treatin me really 6ood~~ i'm really happy wif dat~~

den nike show was alrite la..at least didnt for6et steps..lolz....but damn it....i 6otta wear a CORSET~~~ om6...ima6ine la...a blue sports bra, a black corset wif blue lace at de side...and my own track pants...om6.. luckily i dun need to chAn6e alot for my second item..juz pull over a top..so funnie lor...den top delin tried...look like ah ma...den yen wear look like auntie....lol...den i wear look funnie la...but did a little better den dey wear...lolz...poor sam..6otta chan6e so much..and within one min.lol..actually quite fun la..but before our item, we hAd a buffet lunch..yummy~~din care if we hAd a tummy..u noe y?????coz.......i 6ot a CORSET!!! lol...faintz..squeeze all my fats n tummy in...lolz...6ross...
den after our item we cant leave...all of us squeeze outside de small cubical toiletfor quite lon6....de 6als wif bi6 anne were in de toilet doin some 6als bitchin...lolz...fun lor...i tink de 6uys were outside slpin..lolz...
after de nike tin6, we all went to de desi6ner loun6e and tok somemore...anne treat us to lemon tean n mochA...den yen n ken didn't have a drink...de waiter damn 6ood lor...see yen n ken din hAf drink den 6ave dem de same drink as us for free~~ om6..
he say dey din hAf very ke lian..so...like dat lor...wow~~~

20 may!!!! 6uess wad day is it?? its our anniversary~~~ kekee...now waitin for him to wake up n come my house...keke..6aven him mornin call le...dunno if hE went bk to slp anot...i tink surely wan lor...pi66y~~~ keke... i like~~~~ 1yr 3 months le~~ quite hAppie....but really went true alot...sniff...

but dis mornin..some funnie person 6ave me all de crap...felt really pissed off lor... arrrrrrrrrrrrrrr........i dun wanna tok bout it..... wtf....ruin my mood lor...dun care le la... later dear come le hopefully will cheer me up...lol...

Lon6 time nv han6 out wif my frens le...miss dem worr....sorry.. have been reaally busy...and my dear jace....bz wif exams..better not disturb...muz jia you worr~~~
btw..i 6ot Accept in SIM le~~damn...diff from min......lolzz...confirm le lor..we start school also diff timin de....JOl...........muz help me worr..i dun wanna die inside~~~~lolz....~ate stress lor...scared i cant cope....still 6ot drivin, sIm projects, duntec dance...om6......i haven start school oredi so stress... die lor....
cross de brid6e wen i come to it ba....everyone start school in june...i tink i'll b bored lor...sianz...lucky still 6ot u 6uys...maybe find job to6ether...

well..i wrote alot le worr....keke....

6:46 PM
A woman decided to have her portrait painted. She told the artist, "Paint me with diamond rings, a diamond necklace, emerald bracelets, a ruby broach, and gold Rolex."

"But you are not wearing any of those things," he replied.

"I know," she said. "It's in case I should die before my husband. I'm sure he will remarry right away, and I want his new wife to go crazy looking for the jewelry."

Tuesday, May 10, 2005Y
7:17 AM
After getting all of the Pope's luggage loaded into the limo (and he doesn't travel light), the driver notices that the Pope is still standing on the curb.

"Excuse me, Your Eminence," says the driver,

"Would you please take your seat so we can leave?"

"Well, to tell you the truth," says the Pope,

"They never let me drive at the Vatican, and I'd really like to drive today."

"I'm sorry but I cannot let you do that. I'd lose my job!

And what if something should happen?" protests the driver, wishing he'd never gone to work that morning.

"There might be something extra in it for you," says the Pope.

Reluctantly, the driver gets in the back as the Pope climbs in behind the wheel.

The driver quickly regrets his decision when, after exiting the airport, the Supreme Pontiff floors it, accelerating the limo to 105 mph.

"Please slow down, Your Holiness!!!" pleads the worried driver, but the Pope keeps the pedal to the metal until they hear sirens.

"Oh, dear God, I'm gonna lose my license," moans the driver.

The Pope pulls over and rolls down the window as the cop approaches, but the cop takes one look at him, goes back to his motorcycle, and gets on the radio.

"I need to talk to the Chief," he says to the dispatcher.

The Chief gets on the radio and the cop tells him that he's stopped a limo going a hundred and five.

"So bust him," said the Chief.

"I don't think we want to do that, he's really important," said the cop.

Chief exclaimed........

"All the more reason!"

"No, I mean really important," said the cop.

The Chief then asked......

"Who ya got there, the Mayor?"

Cop:"Bigger."

Chief:"Governor?"

Cop:"Bigger."

"Well," said the Chief,"Who is it?"

Cop: "I think it's God!"

Chief:"What makes you think it's God?"

Cop:"He's got the Pope for a limo driver!"

Monday, May 02, 2005Y
5:34 AM
Om6!!! hK was sooooooo funlor!!!!!! did so many stuff!! i LOVE RICO!!!!!!! he is A 6REat TeacheR!!! Cute too~~~ kekeke... opps.. =x really learnt alot of stuff...DID lots of shoPPIN!!!!! om6!! Bro6ht 1 lua66a6e and one slin6 ba6...den came home wif 1 lu66a6e, 2 slin6 ba6s, one shoulder ba6 and 1 laopo biscuit ba6~~lolz...om6....so auntie lor...but really la..de stuff dere really c4eap!!! bot de whole store of track pants...for my frens and myself!! keke..we alszo did some shoppin on our own~~~ as in seperate ways~~kkeke.. coz de rest really shop really slow~~~~

hAiz....some stuff hAppened dere...feelin really confused.... de first nite was okay~~ sk spent de nite wif me...but de next day...we kinda qurralled..well at least he scolded me....all i said dat i was hun6rie....and he said "but we juz Ate wad!!!!!!" freak lor...we ate like 4 hours a6o lor....cant i feel hun6rie? is it a crime? why only pick on me?? vonn say shE hun6rie he juz kid ard wif her ma..y nv scold hER? i;m Ur 6F for 6oodness sick!!!! y muz u scold me!!!!!! y cant u juz say..its okay~~i'll buy u sometin small to eat......haiz.. Den after dat we din tok to each other.... din feel like tokin to him..... damn hurt lor.....every Sin6le time he does dat to me.......Ar6hhhhh!!! i cant stand it man! and after dat...de nxt few days..MY BF!! Spend de nite in other 6als room!!! i noe notin hapened la..but its juz not rite MAn!!!
i love him i really do........but somehow de tin6s i did, to him waas juz for de sick of doin it.......Wt...... i did it coz i wanted to lor... if i didnt wanna do it..i wuld 6ive a fark bout it lor....... i wuldnt even be bot4ered... so wad eva i did was bai zhuo le lor...feel so stupid......
if i didnt love him i wuld even waste my time on dis relationship....
i feel dat wad eva he say is only WORDs...no actions at all......
maybe he is de one who is juz han6in on...juz for de sick of doin it......
haiz...... i really dunno wad to do......
we juz hAd a tok..... in de end it adds up to my fault......it was supposed to be me sayin to him....."u tink abt it" but in de end ......he asked me to tink if i wanna hAn6 on......Wt........

i really dunno le la.....usually after toks..it'll turn out better....but after dat it turns sour a6ain.....Freak..y muz it always be like dat........ i'm so afraid...
i need someone to be dere for me.......
its like de only time he needs me he'll tok to me....... but wen i need him is he eva ard??? he is always treatin other ppl better den me lor.......
even a blind man can feel it......
i freakin hAte it.....now i'm feelin totally confused.....
i dun wan our relationship to be like dat...i wan it to be filled wif care and concern and most of all....love........
i dun wanna be i6nored....
i wan stuff to be back to normal...as in 2004...b4 everytin6 chan6ed....
dats de way i like it.....i hate de way u behave infront of ppl now...feels kinda poser..attraction...totally sux lor.....
feels like u wanna impress othEr ppl..... but u dun 6ive a fark bout how i wuld feel.... lemmi remind u a6ain......
I AM YOUR 6F!!!!!!!!
pls treat me like one..........

5:33 AM
1. My mother taught me TO APPRECIATE A JOB WELL DONE.
"If you're going to kill each other, do it outside. I just finished cleaning."

2. My mother taught me RELIGION.
"You better pray that will come out of the carpet."

3. My mother taught me about TIME TRAVEL.
"If you don't straighten up, I'm going to knock you into the middle of next week!"

4 My mother taught me LOGIC.
"Because I said so, that's why."

5. My mother taught me MORE LOGIC.
"If you fall out of that swing and break your neck, you're not going to the store with me."

6. My mother taught me FORESIGHT.
"Make sure you wear clean underwear, in case you're in an accident."

7. My mother taught me IRONY.
"Keep crying, and I'll give you something to cry about."

8. My mother taught me about the science of OSMOSIS.
"Shut your mouth and eat your supper."

9. My mother taught me about CONTORTIONISM.
"Will you look at that dirt on the back of your neck!"

10. My mother taught me about STAMINA.
"You'll sit there until all that spinach is gone."

11. My mother taught me about WEATHER.
"This room of yours looks as if a tornado went through it."

12. My mother taught me about HYPOCRISY.
"If I told you once, I've told you a million times. Don't exaggerate!"

13. My mother taught me the CIRCLE OF LIFE.
"I brought you into this world, and I can take you out."

14. My mother taught me about BEHAVIOR MODIFICATION.
"Stop acting like your father!"

15. My mother taught me about ENVY.
"There are millions of less fortunate children in this world who don't have wonderful parents like you do."

16. My mother taught me about ANTICIPATION.
"Just wait until we get home."

17. My mother taught me about RECEIVING.
"You are going to get it when you get home!"

18. My mother taught me MEDICAL SCIENCE.
"If you don't stop crossing your eyes, they are going to freeze that way."

19. My mother taught me ESP.
"Put your sweater on; don't you think I know when you are cold?"

20. My mother taught me HUMOR.
"When that lawn mower cuts off your toes, don't come running to me."

21. My mother taught me HOW TO BECOME AN ADULT.
"If you don't eat your vegetables, you'll never grow up."

22. My mother taught me GENETICS.
"You're just like your father."

23. My mother taught me about my ROOTS.
"Shut that door behind you. Do you think you were born in a barn?"

24. My mother taught me WISDOM.
"When you get to be my age, you'll understand."

25. And my favorite: My mother taught me about JUSTICE.
"One day you'll have kids, and I hope they turn out just like you!