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Tuesday, January 24, 2006Y
9:59 AM
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Your wise quote is: "Love is life.

And if you miss love, you miss life" by

Leo Buscaglia.
Yes, love is indeed what you desire in your

life. If you have it or not is another

matter, but it is in your eyes the most

important feeling. You tend to be a romantic

dreamer and want you and your love to have

that kind of perfect love that you hear about

in fairytales. However that can be hard to

find, but it doesn't mean you are going to

stop looking.


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9:55 AM
Love
You need love.
You are a pretty normal, well-rounded person

that just craves that fairy tale love where

you will be swept off your feet and live

happily ever after. Chances are that you

fantasize or dream about it so much that you

either see all the guys/girls as unromantic

or you tell yourself that anyone could be

your soulmate. You long to have someone by

your side and you want to give back on the

romance part too, not just give.


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9:20 AM
Ghost
"Floating as a ghost through events, forever

unnoticed"

You are someone who is very lonely in life and feel

like no one ever notice you. Due to this you

lack in confidence in yourself and also have

little belief anything you do matters.

Therefor you are passive to most situations

and let other people take care of it, while

you stand aside. When you have a problem you

keep it to yourself, thinking no one will

care anyway if you told them. In social

gatherings you feel anxious and out-of-place

and like to stay away. When you see someone

having a problem you don't really meddle, not

because you don't care but because you think

they wouldn't want to have you around. A way

you could get noticed is through the

Internet, where you can open up more than you

do in real life.


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Sunday, January 22, 2006Y
9:54 AM
(My poem To u) if u eva Come here~~


i carry your heart with me(i carry it in
my heart)i am never without it(anywhere
i go you go,my dear; and whatever is done
by only me is your doing,my darling)
i fear
no fate(for you are my fate,my sweet)i want
no world(for beautiful you are my world,my true)
and it's you are whatever a moon has always meant
and whatever a sun will always sing is you

here is the deepest secret nobody knows
(here is the root of the root and the bud of the bud
and the sky of the sky of a tree called life;which grows
higher than the soul can hope or mind can hide)
and this is the wonder that's keeping the stars apart

i carry your heart(i carry it in my heart)



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I do not love you except because I love you;
I go from loving to not loving you,
From waiting to not waiting for you
My heart moves from cold to fire.

I love you only because it's you the one I love;
I hate you deeply, and hating you
Bend to you, and the measure of my changing love for you
Is that I do not see you but love you blindly.

Maybe January light will consume
My heart with its cruel
Ray, stealing my key to true calm.

In this part of the story I am the one who
Dies, the only one, and I will die of love because I love you,
Because I love you, Love, in fire and blood.

Saturday, January 21, 2006Y
10:50 AM
Todae~~ it kinda started of gd n bad.. was really happie gonna meet him~~ den i reach le~~ den i called him ask him where he was...den he said...he chatting wif his fren..i abit sianz diao...den waited for him for abt 45mins at de busstop~~ but i after awhile i not really dat sian le....coz being wif makes me happie..hehe...

den juz now....
chatted wif some frenz~~
they made me realised that they all still care~~~
:)
i wanna thankz:
ariel for letting me noe dat i still remain in her heart~~and in outfitters heart~~ and for blogging how much u care bout me... hehe...

Minz...i totally noe how u feel..maybe its not something we shld question ba~~ juz b happie wif who we're wif can le~~ dere'll b always someone who cares for u...
and muz laways look on de bright side!!

hehe

dat phrase muz thank Qian le...she really enlighten me alot~~ made me feel dat life izzint so bad~~ keke~~ =D

Skyee....thankx for being so kind n really helpful~~ aiyo...dis gal arr... help me dl whole album... she very sweet~~~ can really cheer me up~~ keke in her small little ways~~ lol~~ i think shes a super sweet person..dun judge her by her appearence~~ kekee~~

WAnna Tnk Tang Yuan also~~~ dat day read ur msg.. aiyo.. made my cry in de library~~ lol.. touched... Keke~~~

Friday, January 13, 2006Y
3:17 AM
Hey guys... i've decided to blog again.... alot has happened to me recently... i've nv ever felt so depressed before... this is my first time tearing so much.... during lecture i dunno y tears keep filling my eyes... on my way to sch too... while eating, watching cartoons or comedies~~ i really cant stop it from flowing out...

todae i took bus home wif one of my sim fren~~ we talked abt frenship... den it suddenly occured to me that i may not haf a really true fren who understands me or maybe thinks i'm special to them... i used to think i had lots of frens who really cared abt me... but i guess they care as much to other ppl too... i realised i dun haf a fren who msges u constantly asking if u're ok...or if u wanna go out.. or keep u company when ever u're dwn...tries to cheer u up.... be sad when eva u're sad... always keep u updated abt stuff in his or her life... call u for lunch during their break times or when eva they haf a chance...
now i've stopped dancing... i went bk to watch dem... i'm glad dat someppl are concern bout me or talk to me...but i realised most of them are juniors..
and i haf also juz realised... we're only close frens when we're dancing... we only communicate n bond when we're dancing... but nv really gone out...like watch a movie or wad... i guess my life mostly was so caught up in dance... sometimes may neglect certain frens~~ like jace.. she is someone i can really call a true fren... wishing me gd luck for my exams...rembering my stuff...
My sisters haf their own life....
and... my bf...
things are really good between us...now...
but..i've been thinking... juz like some normal frens..who only shows concern now.. but when u're not wif dem... i think i wuldnt b in their thoughts...
my bf...juz when i needed him most...i realised he isnt there for me...he only shows concern for awhile... den de nxt day... he wuld not even ask how am i.... not even 1 msg... todae...i've msg him i haf a nighmare...it may sound stupid la... but i woke up feeling kinda sad n scared...he nv replied at all...he's having a competition todae... i msg him i was really sad last nite...he didnt even respond...

i guess....he only likes to see me when i'm happy ba.... but wen he is sad...i'm always b there for him....i try being there for him when ever i can.... i make an effort to try see him every day....
but...yesterday... i went back to dat scary place... i told him i was afraid to go there...he didnt even asked how it went... no msg at all no call... he knew i ended class at 5... he didnt call me at all to meet up or wad.... so i went to de studio....
maybe... to him i'm not really impt...

if i'm eva impt to someone... i guess that person wuld try to make me happie... listen to me...feel for me... and maybe knowing i'm sad... wuld keep me company..even if i cant come out..i could always go dwn stairs...
but...maybe i'm asking too much ba~~~

oh well.... my fren told me things happen for a reason.....
maybe this is to see who are really true to me....

well...if i stop going to the studio...would i b forgotten?
if i stop making an effort to meet him... wuld he leave me? wuld he b close someone...den realised she is de one for him.... this is wad i'm always afraid of... maybe....
so many things to worry abt...mayb i shld juz put everything aside... b by myself maybe?

dunno y i'm speaking so much rubbish...but thesse few days really felt really lonely....

i'm sorry to everyone who i've upset....
or neglected.....