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lookin forward for exams to end!! cant wait to see u 6uys a6ain... miss 4an6in6 out wif u all.. so 6lad to 4af suc4 wonderful frens...... w4o wuld stand by u wen u're dwn n c4eer u up! =p true fren are really 4ard to come by...dey will nv eva for6et u de...and wads more i dun even 4af to try so 4ard to make dem like u..juz be myself can le..and dey'll accept u no matter wad...even if we dun see eac4 ot4er..we'll always keep eac4 ot4er in mind... 4mmm.. very lon6 nv 4ear from dear jace le.. den suddenly received a 6ood luck ms6... 4appieeeee!! s4e remembered wen's my exam!! keke...
lalala...my love life..4af been really wonderful.... except for some bumps.. w4ic4 i c4oose to let loose..keke... will be 4appier! Finally can FEel de love a6ain!!! *jumps for joy* 4ope notin c4an6es for de worse a6ain...
4ate t4ose times....really 4ard to 6et by......but muz stay stron6!! i'm a stron6 bunny!! yupyup! =D smilez more!! kekeke... self an wei... lol...
Stupid marketin paper...y muz it be on a sat...ppl all finis4 exams le...only left some of us..still mu66in for our papers till de very end... i oredi in 4oliday mode le la..CAnnot!! muz studieeeeeee!! *kick my own ass* (i do stupid tin6s sometimes) (well..maybe most of de time) keke... jiaaaaa you!!!!!!! WEi le wo de jian6 lai!! yea!!!
exams suxxxxxx........keep sneezin sia...somemore t4roat irritatin me....arrrrrr... cannot really tok muc4..sneeze so muc4...until cannot see my notes properly... faintzz.....
cant wait for exam over! can play until i die...until all de mosquitoe bite me i also dun care ar... lol...
om6.......my keyboard is more spoilt den eva...numbers cant seem to be pressed anymore...well..maybe once in a aw4ile it will work..if i press dwn real 4ard... faintz..
now 6ot bitten lots of places...om6...stupid mosquitoes...dat day was 4orrible... de bites were really painful...now i keep 6ettin new wans... de mosquitoe muz be really fat and perverted..so irritin...cant seem to stop scratc4in... SomeBody STop me!!!
lol..
BLOOdy hell FAko!!! WTF sia!! keep sayin cannot....den in de end...still do it somewhere else.....secretly somemore.....caused us to waste so much precious time juz to pei he ta...FREAK!! can 6o and die man!! now i hate 4im even more!! cause all my frens so much pain...and mostly....coz someone else so much freakin pain sia.... REally hurts to see dat someone so Dishearten? is dat de word? really dunno how to describe...oh well one day!!!! JUz one DAY!!! DAt someOne will out Beat u by many many TImes!!! DEn can 6o Di6 one hole and Bury le6 le.....Come la!! challAn6e!! Dun 6o for anymore Extra stuff!! Try to ChAllan6e wif ur own talents la!! come!!! i DARE u!! U sure lose wan!!!! (to de ARse hole)
Well...i will AlwaYs Zhi Chi Dat someone de!! muz 6ambette!!! dun CAre ar!!!
todae..i started of to be very suay..coz..wanted to watc4 movie wif jol..den we ran all over de place...findin for a t4eatre dat s4owed "Unfortunated events" wad eva de name of de s4ow is called..lol..we ran from suntec convention to suntec t4eatre carefour den to times bk store to find newspaper to c4eck out de timin..den we saw bu6is 6ot!! om6..oredi 315..and de s4ow was 330 at bu6is...den we ran all de way to de bustop, den took 133 dwn..den ran all de way to de ticketin counter..den to our dismay...dey say de s4ow no more s4owin le..damn...stupid newspaper...
den we went to walk ard..
den bumped into sk!! om6..den 4e came over to find me..=D den 4e really treated me like 4is 6f..and not some stran6er!! so 4appie lor....den wen 4e walked away..my 4eart beated so fast...den i was kinda smilin to myself..om6... lol...
den i was tinkin missin de s4ow was wort4 it...keke..
really 6ald 4e came and look for me... =D =D =D =D =D
den ar...shE said dis... "the only 3 words i hear from u is dui bu qi..but i those are not de words i wanna hear..." sniff! sad!!! y!!!! she really wanna hear "I love you" from her bf!! Y!! y cant he juz love hEr!!! Faintz....den while he's sleepin..she kept cryin and tokin to him...but he doesnt noe dat she is totally in pain... sobz!! she looks so stron6 and cheerful!! But actually crumblin inside... de 6uy is soooo stupid!! De 6al in front of her love him so much!! and he tinks of another 6al..faintz...
y ar...dis few days keep watchin sad love shows ar...
my fav. son6s (suits my Xin6 Qin6):
Lin Jun Jie - Bu Don6
Lin jun jie - hui you na me yi tian
Lin jun jie - Win6s
M2m - 6ive a little love
=p
and wen de comp ended, i told 4im i 6otta 6o off le.. 4e juz waved...wt.. 4e usually 6ive me a hu6 or a kiss 6oodbye.... i 6uess.. maybe.... 4e din wan me to be known as 4is 6f to 4is MFS frens ba.. den maybe he can 6et close to someone else wit4out leavin a bad impression on dat person....(to be considered flirtin)
i'm juz an unimportant person..... not fit to be announced to de world.. not cool enuff, not pretty enuff..not cute...not sweet... not wort4 to be sacrificed for... well... if one day i were to die.. i bet 4e wun even be sad...
juz dun feel like 4is 6f...u noe wad i mean... i'm not even treated like one.... i'm not de only one w4o sees it..ppl can see it too... i dunno wen i'll be able to last...
I take you back again
Not because I need a friend
Just because I can't pretend
Like the others do
You think you're really serious
Clever and mysterious
Talking like you're dangerous
Talking like a fool
Every day there's someone else
Who wants to get with me
I'm telling you
If you know what's good for you
Treat me like you used to do
Love me like before
'Cos all I can do is watch and wonder
where the boy I know has gone
You say that you want me, well it's
Time to tell your friends where they belong
You can find it in your heart
Give a little love
Have a little faith
In the two of us
You can find it in your soul
Little boy I don't want anything to do with you
Get on your knees
I'm the one you have to please
Not the ones you want to be
I don't think you're cool
'Cos soon you can only watch and wonder
Where the girl you knew has gone
And do you really wanna lose a friend
You gotta understand or it has to end
'Cos I don't wanna wait for you anymore
CAN'T TAKE IT ANYMORE!!!!!!
tml 4e will be meetin dem for dance comp.. no one told me deres a comp.. well.. i wanna 6o watc4..but.. i'm not invited...so..... better not ba.. anyway...4e may not wan dem to noe dat i'm 4is 6f... i'm totally notin to boast abt.. well.. i'll juz live my own life....4opin for more.....but try not to 6et too disappointed...
life seems to be pickin up..not too sad anymore...
msn can really do wonders...many ppl fall in love on de net... ppl 6row closer....
c4attin......4mmm...... scared... but oredi prepared.... lol...
i can 6o 4on6 kon6!!! but juz 4eard 4e no $$ to 6o...sad le... 4opin to 6o overseas wif 4im...
my class ended at 2pm... waited 4 hours plus for dear to end class.... dunno y i din feel sian at all..althou i was alone de whole day..keke..i took bus wif him to his house...journey felt quite fast...faster den last time...maybe coz had lots of stuff to tok abt ba...time passes faster wen u're enjoyin it...
i've been t4inkin a6ain... i realise self protectin urself from love prevents u from havin de time of ur life! u can nv outsmart 6ettin hurt..coz in de end u'll still 6et hurt one way or another..its part n parcle of life... Cant hide from love de rest of ur life because maybe it wun work out... kekee...sounds kinda chim... well.. i let someone in my life..he took my breath away...i had de time of my life... now..at least i'll have those memories to treasure...
it takes two hands to clap~ (learnt it from jace) keke...
Sorry...juz need a place to scream..... relieve stress.......
i'm sooo tired....slept at 2..woke up at 5am.... de do project...den finally finis4... den my fren say 6ot lots of stuff missin...coz i din refer to my lect notes... but but but.. wanted to re do...i realised i dun 4af my lect notes!! ARRRRRR! om6....tml need to present le...now i'm stuck wif notin...dieeeeeeeeeeeeeee
panickin le...now muz try to make up some stuff le....
den so supprisin6! dear called!! om6!! i was s4ocked tot wad 4appen to 4im..scare me.. but den it was a casual tok.. :) dat fone call made my day!! before dat ard 245pm..me and cyn were at de atrium...i dunno y...i keep 4earin sk's ba6 sound..den i keep turnin around lookin for 4im..den i kept starin at de entrance of blk 56...coz ard dat time 4is class s4ould be endin... i felt so stupid... om6... *slaps my 4ead* i keep tellin myself not to look..but my stupid eyes juz keep lookin dat direction..cyn kept tokin to me..but i wasnt really concentratin.. =x aniwae..i walked alon6 de bazar...den saw lots of stuff..wanted to buy for 4im...i look very lon6..even de s4op uncle also reconize me le...lol..coz i keep walkin back and fort4...t4inkin if i s4ould buy anot... den i saw dis s4irt...very nice!! suits 4im alot!! i wanted to buy!! den i see de size..maybe 4e wuldnt like it..so i didnt buy in de end....
den at nite we went marina bay eat steam boat!! 6ot s4uttle bus..om6!! it was soooo fun! de uncle was speedin all de way!! felt really like some rollar coaster!! den at every turnin we kept ban6in into de sides..lol...fun fun! my fren almost puke..lol.. de 6uys did most of de cookin..i as usual...scared of splattery oil... screamed..lol.. den in de end dey cooked for us..i tried to 4elp abit..keke.. de 6uys were sooo 6entlemanly...all de 6als really felt like some princess!! kan6yu kept cookin and puttin stuff on our plates..4e even bot drinks for us...de ot4er 6uy also cooked and peeled prawns for us...lol..total 6ot ard..5 6als and 2 6uys.. i tink i 6it burnt...my 4ands are a little red still.. den after de steam boat, we wanted to rus4 dwn to cine to take neo print as a remembrance coz dey 6oin into army le..but we reaced dere it was closed le..juz like de last time...sianz...also de same t4in6...lol..6uess no fate ba...de we met armit and 4is 6al ard dere...den went to drink coffee at starbucks...next to california fitness...we sat dere and c4at.. i was too full to drink..and din wanna spend anymore money...lol..den after dat took bus 4ome....yawnz..lucky my ur6e to take cab was controlled!! yeaaaaaa !! i'm 6ood!!!
wis4 i didnt 4af to leave.........dunno wen will be like dis a6ain...now 4e's 4an6in out wif de cool ppl...feel sooooooo z4i bei le.... dey can dance super well...dey are pretty...fun.....everyt4in i;'m not...
aniwae..4ope everyt4in will be fine ba......
smilez!
well..todae woke up wif a sore in my tummy..didnt really feel 6ood.. met jace jol and xin..mae woke up late..lol.. den went sw...nooor was 6reat! 6reat work out! lots of floor work looked like breakin moves..lol..cool! den we took cab dwn to JB.. soooo many ppl! den dey were oredi dancin belly dancin class..lol..funnie...
todae was all de free classes.. total i went for 2 4ip 4op classes, jazz, pilates, and finally JAzz Ballet!! wooooooot! OM6!!!!! i 6ot a kiss todae!!!!!!! i blus4ed....kekeke.... a little s4ocked t4ou... :p
o4 well..after class...took cab to my 6ranny's keke... yup ate nice ice cream! me and my cousin rocks!! keke...
4aiz...din 4ear from 4im todae.... sad case... muz be really enjoyin 4im self wif MFS ppl ba... ima6ine...... Loads of 6als and 1 6uy....lol... 4e muz be admirin dem like siao ba,.... dey are pretty...kinda... in a way... and dey can really dance.... i'm like shit compared to dem....
den i met jace dey all at mellium walk..den saw DAn!! lon6 time no see 4im le...keke..den i saw alvin..4e waved at me wif de sad face..lol... den i tot of my dearest jace..lol... wen we arrived at 6era's bday...felt as t4ou i was walkin down a cat walk...so many sittin at de side.. den all stare quietly at u.. lol..kinda like in an awkward situation.. jace, jol and me..walked to one side wrote de bday card..den presented it to 4er..ekeke..de food was 6reat! but de drink..lol... SOUR ar!!!
after 4er bday..wait for 4er to clean up..den we went KSter at c4ina town... vonne was oredi dere..lol..at first i din wanna 6o...but juz accompany dem dere..den wen we reac4ed dere i blur blur step into de room..den dey counted our 4eads le..den stay lor..cannot 4elp it la...my 1st time in KTV....lol...sua ku sia..... om6!! James and alle6ra really can sin6 damn well sia!! can melt sia... den 4eard de son6..."Wo men de ai" sniff! reminds me of de son6 4e used to play on de piano..keke..
sadz..dunno if its sad or wad... but..its juz a sinkin6 feelin... sk juz said 4e 6onna slp soon..den i asked if 4e callin me..den 4e said..4is fren callin 4im.. 6uessed a 6al le...but its notin ba...s4e's sad...needs comfort... 6uess its notin.. :) i'll wait for 4is call later ba! tml 4e needs to wake up early for dance class wif mFS ppl.. so i 6uess i'll be 6oin SW and JB ba... Muz tnkz sam for 4er card! or else i cant 6o le.. no $$... Tnks SAm bunny!
well..on de bus 4e slept 3/4 of de way... dunno y 4e looks so peaceful and cute wen 4e sleeps...i 6uess maybe dats de only time w4ere i 6et to stare at 4im and will not 6et scolded """WAD?" de "its so irritatin dat u're starin at me tone"
o well... now dun 6et too 4urt wen 4e uses de 4ars4 tones on me le.. 4opefully one day i'll 6et numb to it too... :)
stupid mapple!!!! cant play!!! sooo la66y!! arrrrrrrrrr!!! now 6ot nuttin to do... cant juz sit 4ere and c4at all day...fin6er will numb de... lucky 6ot anot4er patc4...4opefully it'll be better..den can play! yippie! dunno y sk's cousin suddenly ms6 me..keke...not too bored...
DEn de toot pi6 kan6 yu!! mms me!! om6! it was de w4ite noise poster!!! om6!! scared de tootz out of me!! -_-"
my feelins everyday feels like i'm runnin away... tryin very 4ard not to bot4er bout certain stuff...alt4ou i'm really affected by dem... wis4 i dun 4ave to run away...wis4 everyt4in wuld 6o normal..y cant ppl juz love like deres no tml? y cant ppl juz like someone and dat person juz like dem back? y muz de world be so complicated? 6uess so it wuldnt be a borin world huh?
at one time u really love someone...u try so 4ard to 6et some love back..sometimes u do..but sometimes u dun...den one day..u'll be very tired..den u'll start to tink..y did u love dat person in de 1st place? once de moment of love for 4im has passed...and u start to feel de love from dat person...but by de time..its too late...u dun love 4im as muc4 anymore...time.... time is all dat matters...if u catc4 eac4 ot4er at de rite time...dats 6reat! if not....both of u will suffer....
At de end of de day..i din re6ret stayin back..keke.. coz...i 4eard de p4rase i've been waitin for, for very very lon6 le!! 4e SAid 4e loves me!! sniff... it came as a s4ock t4ou... 4eart kinda skipped a beat.. lol..om6..6oin crazy le...
todae...Finally 6ot to watc4 my s4ow "CLoser"!! yes!! dra6 sk watc4 wif me...lol.. poor 6uy..looked so tired...well dun wanna watc4 dis s4ow wif ot4er ppl.. de s4ow was kinda dra66y...but it really reflects reality... sad to say... some4ow it feels a little like stuff 4appenin around me... de s4ow was quite funnie at certain parts... but...deres dis part w4ere it 6ot quite upsettin6.... brou6ht some tears to my eyes...lucky he din see it..keke...
well..after de s4ow i took train to 4is 4ouse...den i took a bus...was supposed to 6o 4ome... but decided to 6o J8 instead...reac4ed 4ome ard 8pm... i did some s4oppin...waited for de bus super lon6...lucky my fren was smsin me all de way from dere to 4ome...not too bored...
came 4ome played maple...died 2 times today...sianz... 10% lei... zzzzz.... later muz do my project le...sianz...
Finally need to say dis...
Toot pi6 sam!! almost made me cry...sniff!....made me t4in6 of my memories... lucky i turned away quickly..but need to t4ank 4im too.... made me remember 4ow muc4 i still love 4im....
(for6ot to mention dis in my previous entries)
later dat nite..saw sk online...den suddenly off line le...den i waited for 4is call..usuallly 4e wuld call me every nite de...oredi 2 nites din call me le..sniff.. den i called 4im...den ask 4im y 4e din call me...4e oredi slept..usually 4e wuld call me b4 4e slps de...sniff.. dunno le la..driftin6 furt4er and furt4er le.... den i juz said...u 6o slp ba..dun wanna tok to u le...den 4e really 6o slp..... -_-?"