PLEASE READ THESE TERMS: Sunday, April 17, 2005Y
5:46 AM
Todae was horrible~~ First time i saw him eva so an6ry...kicked the chair and all.. we din tok all de way... i noe...its all my fault... well from now on..my 6uess is dat he'll prob do wad eva i did...or worse...but de prob is i din do anytin6 bad..juz dun wan any misunderstandin... like a small tin6 can lead to a bi6 tin6..maybe its coz we din see each other for 6 days...kinda drifted..my heart aches seein u sick like dat...cou6hin lots..sniffin lots too..but cant seem to do anytin bout it...
i really dunno wads 6otten to me.. somehow i will try to become like de person i love.. Which is bad in some ways... its like...since u cana do it...y cant i... well.. firstly i will always be waitinfor him to ask me out or at leaaast say he wanna see me...dats y i nv eva confirm my outins wif my frens...coz if dat one fone call comes...i'll immidiately cancle my fren..dats really bad ya...but of coz..if its oredi confirmed...den no choice la.. well... i rem deres dis phrase.. "Find sometin6 to do la!" dats wen i wanted to meet him and he doesnt seem to understand... he really doesnt understand wad i wan and wad i like....its always dis "kns la" "i am not Blah Blah" "no, u dun like it"
yeap...but seriously..wad eva i said..i meant it..
now i'm in a state of lost and loneliness...... its like u have so many ppl ard u..but still feel lonely.... and de person u wan ard is nv ard.... haiz.... dunno wad to do.....
my life stinks aniwae..*u are de only one who makes it better...but wen stuff between us 6oes bad...my life crumbles down once more*
watchin6 kate and leoplod...romantic movie....sniff...if only fairy tales do come true... well..i 6uess it only happens in movies....
