PLEASE READ THESE TERMS: Monday, May 02, 2005Y
5:34 AM
Om6!!! hK was sooooooo funlor!!!!!! did so many stuff!! i LOVE RICO!!!!!!! he is A 6REat TeacheR!!! Cute too~~~ kekeke... opps.. =x really learnt alot of stuff...DID lots of shoPPIN!!!!! om6!! Bro6ht 1 lua66a6e and one slin6 ba6...den came home wif 1 lu66a6e, 2 slin6 ba6s, one shoulder ba6 and 1 laopo biscuit ba6~~lolz...om6....so auntie lor...but really la..de stuff dere really c4eap!!! bot de whole store of track pants...for my frens and myself!! keke..we alszo did some shoppin on our own~~~ as in seperate ways~~kkeke.. coz de rest really shop really slow~~~~hAiz....some stuff hAppened dere...feelin really confused.... de first nite was okay~~ sk spent de nite wif me...but de next day...we kinda qurralled..well at least he scolded me....all i said dat i was hun6rie....and he said "but we juz Ate wad!!!!!!" freak lor...we ate like 4 hours a6o lor....cant i feel hun6rie? is it a crime? why only pick on me?? vonn say shE hun6rie he juz kid ard wif her ma..y nv scold hER? i;m Ur 6F for 6oodness sick!!!! y muz u scold me!!!!!! y cant u juz say..its okay~~i'll buy u sometin small to eat......haiz.. Den after dat we din tok to each other.... din feel like tokin to him..... damn hurt lor.....every Sin6le time he does dat to me.......Ar6hhhhh!!! i cant stand it man! and after dat...de nxt few days..MY BF!! Spend de nite in other 6als room!!! i noe notin hapened la..but its juz not rite MAn!!!
i love him i really do........but somehow de tin6s i did, to him waas juz for de sick of doin it.......Wt...... i did it coz i wanted to lor... if i didnt wanna do it..i wuld 6ive a fark bout it lor....... i wuldnt even be bot4ered... so wad eva i did was bai zhuo le lor...feel so stupid......
if i didnt love him i wuld even waste my time on dis relationship....
i feel dat wad eva he say is only WORDs...no actions at all......
maybe he is de one who is juz han6in on...juz for de sick of doin it......
haiz...... i really dunno wad to do......
we juz hAd a tok..... in de end it adds up to my fault......it was supposed to be me sayin to him....."u tink abt it" but in de end ......he asked me to tink if i wanna hAn6 on......Wt........
i really dunno le la.....usually after toks..it'll turn out better....but after dat it turns sour a6ain.....Freak..y muz it always be like dat........ i'm so afraid...
i need someone to be dere for me.......
its like de only time he needs me he'll tok to me....... but wen i need him is he eva ard??? he is always treatin other ppl better den me lor.......
even a blind man can feel it......
i freakin hAte it.....now i'm feelin totally confused.....
i dun wan our relationship to be like dat...i wan it to be filled wif care and concern and most of all....love........
i dun wanna be i6nored....
i wan stuff to be back to normal...as in 2004...b4 everytin6 chan6ed....
dats de way i like it.....i hate de way u behave infront of ppl now...feels kinda poser..attraction...totally sux lor.....
feels like u wanna impress othEr ppl..... but u dun 6ive a fark bout how i wuld feel.... lemmi remind u a6ain......
I AM YOUR 6F!!!!!!!!
pls treat me like one..........
