PLEASE READ THESE TERMS: Wednesday, June 22, 2005Y
9:20 AM
hai... firstly...feeling kinda down...seeing all my frens so sad..and i cant even do anything to help... firstly min...haiz... she prac for dis comp so long le...den suddenly hurt her leg..den cannot dance...actually is can de..but den for her own sake...she better not...and got replaced...hai..den another is ariel hai...see her so hurt....those sad eyes....de fake laughter... de trying to be strong and happie look... i dunno how to help her either... but hope she can faster find her xing fu..and settle dwn...and get her happie funnie self back...
sigh...todae...dunno y feel kinda drifted from him...he didnt really tok to me... i sat next to him during lunch...usually he'll hold my hand..but...i waited...he didnt...i think he touched other ppl more den he touched me...den after dance...kinda happie he hugged me...but den again...in ann's car...he din even hold my hand orlooked at me...he was leaniing forward..usually he wuld... but now... hai...i dunno la... den i juz leaned on de window...cloed my eyes... waited for de pain to subside... after dat wen we got down... usually we wuld tok...miss a few cabs... before i wuld actually flag for mine.. but todae...after we got down..he ask me to flag for cab immediately... at first i tot we could at least hang ard wif each other for a while but...hai...after wad he said..i immediately went for de cab... stupid uncle came so fast...we juz hugged good bye... if i looked back at him..i wuld have cried n de cab..missing him so much... so i juz act cool..and cold... and waved and juz left......
*crys*
*missing u badly*
wish it was 1 year ago...........
wish u can be more seriously....
treat me more seriously....
i wuld once in a while wanna feel pampered and loved and care for deeply..
wish u knew.........
how diff it is juz to love u......
