PLEASE READ THESE TERMS: Sunday, July 10, 2005Y
8:38 AM
Todae i was abt to go out..i saw dis small little kitty at de bus stop...omg...it was sooo cute!!! somemore abt to rain le..i bu heng xin leave him dere...so i carried him in my bad and brought him home..actually outside my home..haha... mommy will kill me sia...den i put it in a shoe box and gave it some milk and water...and got some fish fillet for him.... left him in de box at de stairs..hopefully he stays well..his eyes seemed swollen n watery...maybe scared until cry too much ba....tml mornin b4 school i better check on him...hmmm...dancce is alrite...very tiring but i like it coz...it'll help me Lose my FAts!! and help me improve on my dance technics..but sometimes...really afraid i'll let my grp dwn...coz my mom does not approve of me dancing..i only can dance once a week...which is wed...so de rest of de days will haf to lie to her...hai... hate it sia..den somemore..wen eva i come home she'll scold me non stop..i nv even ding zui...she can tok for hours de...serious!!! i cant be bothered to reply...dunno wad to tell her dis sat goin for remix...hai....
MY LOVE LIFE.....dunno wad to say.... we juz dun communicate well.... we dun haf those lovy dovey talks anymore...until i cant really rem wad it felt like.. all we tok abt is wad normal frens wuld tok abt.... now...things haf really changed...wen eva he's fustrated wif me or wad...he'll use "DAT" funnie fierce percing tone to me.. i HATE it to de core!! i really dun feel it anymore...dun feel de care n concern anyone in love wuld gif... now its getting worse...i'm afraid... afraid...it comes to a point where i wuld really grow tired...... coz i know i love him too much le...dat i zai yi alot of things..... dats y 'm afraid i will be tired of all this easily... each time he does something or says something dat pierce thru my heart..i wuld bear a small grudge... hope it doesnt grow really big... coz now its oredi accumulating le.... dunno when is de limit.....
6/6/04 is de date where everything went dwn...dat is de date where i felt de love haf depleted... he doesnt care anymore..its all abt himself now..... i now he has dreams to fullfill...maybe i'm juz not in it.... u cant haf de best of both worlds... Best dancer...... gf...... i think....he cant fit both into his life... maybe one day..i'll be pushed out totally...de process has oredi started.....
A FEW MeanIngFul QuoTES~~~
"love each other or perish" Without love, we are birds with broken wings.
"Friends care for u, but its not the same as having someone who will not leave. It's not the same as havin someone whom u know has an eye on you, is watching u the whole time."
"This is part of what a relationship is about, not juz love, but letting others know there's someone who is watching out for them."
"IF You are trying to show off for people at de top, FORGET it. They will look down at you anyhow. And if you're trying to show off for people at the bottom, FORGET it. They will only envy u. STatus will get u no where. Only an open Hear will allow u to flost equally between everyone."
